Mature decision of the day.....

[demond]

Ok...I meant to delete that post sooner, but I had to wait for an available laptop. I know I'm pissy, but I think I have every right to be. They were both my best friends and now all I have is a screwed up situation with people I cant trust. For me, it's a terrible feeling...and it pisses me off and there isn't a damn thing I can do about it. Ok so I'm venting. It doesn't change the fact that we aren't friends, but I'm sorry, this is one of the only methods I have of dealing. I cant drink my problems away like others, because that disguise only lasts for so long. I have few people to talk to, and this may sound like a pity cry but geez...what do you do? Nothing I can do will affect them like this...this isn't something you just get over and being that our circle of friends is so small, there's no way to just avoid it. At least I'm trying to get over it and not dwell on it...

So yes, I'm sorry for being pissed and shitty and spiteful...I dont like to be, but I also dont want pent up aggression flowing through me. I need to know who my friends are because i just don't really know who to trust. I'ts not right...sure I've done some mean things...but this is ridiculous.