Winter and the closing of the year
I knew working retail would kill my holiday spirit, but I think it killed my appreciation for colder weather as well. The thought of not enjoying Fall and Winter like I normally do upsets me. This year has been a whirlwind of activity and these next two months seem like they will be too. I want to be able to enjoy the last of Fall and the beginning of Winter like I always do.
I really want to throw a holiday party like I used to, but, I don't think that's feasible right now. Perhaps I'll just go out more and enjoy nature. I don't feel myself unless I connect with Nature. It's been a long time. I can't remember the last time I just went out in the woods and just enjoyed myself.
I want to write and I need to write. The ideas are there but the time is not. I've never been this pressed for time before. I feel so full and complete with my life, however. I just wish I had more hours in the day.
I miss my friends. I really do. I don't get to see as many of them like I used to. Everyone is so caught up in their own lives and their own busyness. That's kind of the reason why I want to throw a party; it'd be an excuse to get everyone together again, even if for a few hours or so.
My woman makes me so incredibly happy that I can't even describe it. We grow closer together and grow more comfortable with each other as the time passes on. Our stuff is strewn about together. I love leaving some of my clothes and items at her apartment and I love it when she leaves things here in my room. I refer to my car as "our" car. I want to share my life with her indefinitely. We just have to wait. Waiting kills me, but, we can do it. School is much more important right now. I never knew a year ago that I'd want to marry her. I never knew that we'd come this far. But I am glad we have.
I really want to throw a holiday party like I used to, but, I don't think that's feasible right now. Perhaps I'll just go out more and enjoy nature. I don't feel myself unless I connect with Nature. It's been a long time. I can't remember the last time I just went out in the woods and just enjoyed myself.
I want to write and I need to write. The ideas are there but the time is not. I've never been this pressed for time before. I feel so full and complete with my life, however. I just wish I had more hours in the day.
I miss my friends. I really do. I don't get to see as many of them like I used to. Everyone is so caught up in their own lives and their own busyness. That's kind of the reason why I want to throw a party; it'd be an excuse to get everyone together again, even if for a few hours or so.
My woman makes me so incredibly happy that I can't even describe it. We grow closer together and grow more comfortable with each other as the time passes on. Our stuff is strewn about together. I love leaving some of my clothes and items at her apartment and I love it when she leaves things here in my room. I refer to my car as "our" car. I want to share my life with her indefinitely. We just have to wait. Waiting kills me, but, we can do it. School is much more important right now. I never knew a year ago that I'd want to marry her. I never knew that we'd come this far. But I am glad we have.