A Declaration of Love
Marriage.
I know that word scares her. This is her first real relationship. Truth be told, the word scares me too. With my past girlfriends, I thought of spending the rest of my life with them. I honestly thought I would. But I never wanted to get married to them. Marriage was something I had never wanted. I was pretty sure I would never want to get married.
But she makes me want that bond. She makes me want to take that next step. I don't know what it is about her, but, I feel so comfortable. I feel like she knows me, knows all of me. I feel like she can look inside of me and know what my heart is saying. I haven't felt like that about anyone.
She knows what I want to say when I cannot find the right words. She knows when I am angry before I even open my mouth. She knows how to soothe my rage and temper before I go too far.
She understands and likes my ridiculous sense of humor. She even matches my humor. She calls me on my lack of common sense and makes me pay attention to the world around me. She made me want to write again.
With one word, one gesture, one look, I can turn into putty at her feet and she knows it. She knows exactly where to touch and kiss to make my knees buckle.
A woman like this is not one I am willing to part with. She has a heart of gold that I haven't been able to find anywhere else. Her love is true. I've been with so many manipulators and liars. Her heart is genuine. I do not worry with her. All my walls have been beaten down by her gentle wear. There is no more resistance.
I love calling her mine. I love lazy Sundays after crazy Saturday night fuckings. I love bringing her coffee and peanut butter toast in bed. I love waking up before her and just watching her. I love watching her wake up, those beautiful mocha eyes fluttering in the morning light.
I love her pouty lips and how fights between us never last longer than a day.
She has strength and confidence, if only she could temper it and master it. I love bringing them out of her. I love her bedroom eyes. I love our passion and lust.
I know I don't need marriage to be a declaration of love. But the feeling can't seem to leave me. I know what I want.
I know that word scares her. This is her first real relationship. Truth be told, the word scares me too. With my past girlfriends, I thought of spending the rest of my life with them. I honestly thought I would. But I never wanted to get married to them. Marriage was something I had never wanted. I was pretty sure I would never want to get married.
But she makes me want that bond. She makes me want to take that next step. I don't know what it is about her, but, I feel so comfortable. I feel like she knows me, knows all of me. I feel like she can look inside of me and know what my heart is saying. I haven't felt like that about anyone.
She knows what I want to say when I cannot find the right words. She knows when I am angry before I even open my mouth. She knows how to soothe my rage and temper before I go too far.
She understands and likes my ridiculous sense of humor. She even matches my humor. She calls me on my lack of common sense and makes me pay attention to the world around me. She made me want to write again.
With one word, one gesture, one look, I can turn into putty at her feet and she knows it. She knows exactly where to touch and kiss to make my knees buckle.
A woman like this is not one I am willing to part with. She has a heart of gold that I haven't been able to find anywhere else. Her love is true. I've been with so many manipulators and liars. Her heart is genuine. I do not worry with her. All my walls have been beaten down by her gentle wear. There is no more resistance.
I love calling her mine. I love lazy Sundays after crazy Saturday night fuckings. I love bringing her coffee and peanut butter toast in bed. I love waking up before her and just watching her. I love watching her wake up, those beautiful mocha eyes fluttering in the morning light.
I love her pouty lips and how fights between us never last longer than a day.
She has strength and confidence, if only she could temper it and master it. I love bringing them out of her. I love her bedroom eyes. I love our passion and lust.
I know I don't need marriage to be a declaration of love. But the feeling can't seem to leave me. I know what I want.