Ah~ fresh air
I've noticed a trend.. I cant seem to keep any friends. Sometimes i truly think i might be Satan, as alot of people have depicted me as. It never really bothered me much until recently.. Cel and Algy i could care less about, they're just a couple of.. silly girls... who hate me cuz they have it stuck in their heads that i've somehow taken Satou away from them, or some dumb shit. When infact they themselves have done a wonderful job of pushing her away.. When i've done quite the opposite.. I ENCOURAGED Satou to go have fun with them. I NEVER told Satou that she couldnt hang out with them. Not ONCE have i made Satou choose between me, and Cel and Algy.. unlike Celesse... It's funny, cuz me and Cel used to be best friends, at least, I considered her MY best friend.. but all that changed when i started dating Satou. I think she got it stuck in her head that me and Satou dating would destroy our little group, that she subconsciously pushed me away and began to hate me, just to maybe prove herself right. Algy just followed suite, taking the chance to swoop in and take my place.
Reirei on the otherhand.. hurt me a little more than Cel and Algy. I think i know why.. with Cel and Algy, i didnt really have a choice in things.. they already hated me. With Reirei, i could have prevented it i think..
Me and reirei, in my opinion, have always been good friends, she was my partner in crime. She was someone i could be as goofy as i wanted around, we'd call eachother names and whotnot and just have fun. But when she started dating Mitch, i got kinda jealous.. She gently inserted her head firmly between Mitch's ass cheeks. I seemed to get placed behind Mitch and that kinda pissed me off. Why should -I-, who's been friends with Reirei have to be placed on the back-burner, while this douchebag gets my spot? I think the final straw was when she came to me and said "we should draw together... i'll see if i can 'make some time' this weekend". She had to "make room" for me... well far be it from me to take up her precious time, y'know? So i took it as an insult.. prolly dumb i know.. and when we finally got around to drawing that weekend, neither of us seemed to have our hearts in it... it was a "hey.." "hi" "... wassap?" "not much.." "oh..." "yep....." "........... okay bye" "bye :|". And that was prolly the last we really spoke to eachother. So yes.. I'm not really sure who's to blame.. I personally think we both are..
There was a short time, after her and Mitch broke up, that she seemed to suddenly wanna talk but we barely spoke of our problems.. all she seemed to want to talk about was Mitch.. so needless to say, i wasnt much of a talker.. So she moved onto Satou, they talked quite a bit i think, then suddenly it stopped.. and Reirei thought it was a good idea to distance herself as far away from me as possible. She removed me from her journal friends list for a while before deleting the whole thing. Tho i do keep track of her and it hurts to see her how she is now... i cant quite put my finger on it tho..
So now it's too late for me to even say i'm sorry if i felt so inclined to.. but that's the thing.. i REFUSE to seek someone out that seemingly wants nothing to do with me.. So it seems like i lost a good friend over some dumb shit.. ah well..
The two that have stuck with me are Satou and Kami.. Satou's been a sweetheart and i dunno what i'd do without 'er.
Me and Kami have been friends for YEARS, she's my oldest online friend. I love 'er to death. There've been times when we've gone a while without talking to eachother, but we've never really had any major fights that i can remember.. These two women have stuck with me through thick and thin, and i cant thank them enough for it. I love these two to death <3
I think.. that i've just stopped caring about things as much.. and perhaps i take friendships lightly now.. after my last few have been demolished.. But only the future knows for sure.. But eh, i just felt i had to get a few things off my chest. Cheers! :D
Reirei on the otherhand.. hurt me a little more than Cel and Algy. I think i know why.. with Cel and Algy, i didnt really have a choice in things.. they already hated me. With Reirei, i could have prevented it i think..
Me and reirei, in my opinion, have always been good friends, she was my partner in crime. She was someone i could be as goofy as i wanted around, we'd call eachother names and whotnot and just have fun. But when she started dating Mitch, i got kinda jealous.. She gently inserted her head firmly between Mitch's ass cheeks. I seemed to get placed behind Mitch and that kinda pissed me off. Why should -I-, who's been friends with Reirei have to be placed on the back-burner, while this douchebag gets my spot? I think the final straw was when she came to me and said "we should draw together... i'll see if i can 'make some time' this weekend". She had to "make room" for me... well far be it from me to take up her precious time, y'know? So i took it as an insult.. prolly dumb i know.. and when we finally got around to drawing that weekend, neither of us seemed to have our hearts in it... it was a "hey.." "hi" "... wassap?" "not much.." "oh..." "yep....." "........... okay bye" "bye :|". And that was prolly the last we really spoke to eachother. So yes.. I'm not really sure who's to blame.. I personally think we both are..
There was a short time, after her and Mitch broke up, that she seemed to suddenly wanna talk but we barely spoke of our problems.. all she seemed to want to talk about was Mitch.. so needless to say, i wasnt much of a talker.. So she moved onto Satou, they talked quite a bit i think, then suddenly it stopped.. and Reirei thought it was a good idea to distance herself as far away from me as possible. She removed me from her journal friends list for a while before deleting the whole thing. Tho i do keep track of her and it hurts to see her how she is now... i cant quite put my finger on it tho..
So now it's too late for me to even say i'm sorry if i felt so inclined to.. but that's the thing.. i REFUSE to seek someone out that seemingly wants nothing to do with me.. So it seems like i lost a good friend over some dumb shit.. ah well..
The two that have stuck with me are Satou and Kami.. Satou's been a sweetheart and i dunno what i'd do without 'er.
Me and Kami have been friends for YEARS, she's my oldest online friend. I love 'er to death. There've been times when we've gone a while without talking to eachother, but we've never really had any major fights that i can remember.. These two women have stuck with me through thick and thin, and i cant thank them enough for it. I love these two to death <3
I think.. that i've just stopped caring about things as much.. and perhaps i take friendships lightly now.. after my last few have been demolished.. But only the future knows for sure.. But eh, i just felt i had to get a few things off my chest. Cheers! :D