Lossing Everything...
...I have never been popular... I was always the kid at school that was teased and picked on because I was the fat kid, because I had red hair, because I was smart... Whatever the reasons I have never had many friends in my life and those few I had have been so precious to me... But I am lossing those too...
When I was in highschool say I don't know 13 or 14... I was knocked to the ground and beaten by people I called my friends... one of those so called friends was also a cousin... After something like this... I believe you learn who your friends really are...
I continued through highschool with these people... these 'friends'... though some left and some stayed and some changed and... I made a few new 'friends'... But it wasn't really till when I left highschool I knew who my friends where...
I had two friends... the best friends that anyone could wish for... But soon I lost one of those friends too... He moved away and we grew apart and the friendship was lost... but this had me and my other friend grow closer... We have been best friends for must be close to 7 years... Known each other since we started school... But I am lossing that now too...
I never cared to have friends... Friends where people that used you... only wanted you when they wanted something... It was these 'friends' I could do without... All I ever had was my bestfriend... I am lossing her now...
I made a few friends through college and... where are they now... one moved away and never keeps contact no more... one was a lying back stabbing BITCH who changed in the few years I knew her into someone else... I hate her and I hate what she done to me... the 3rd... heh... once in a bluemoon... I seen him once since he moved back... we had a breif chat but... shit lost another in the long run haven't I...
Boyfriends... Oh sure I had a few use them and abuse them like what was done to me all my life I suppose... there where only 2 guys I have ever been with... B and X... that meant EVERYTHING to me and still do that... Was never part of my game... when B came along the game was over and forever was to be with him... because it was never going to be with X again since he'd found someone knew...
...but I love B and I could spent the rest my life with him in a heart beat... I wish to hell that things where different... EVERYONE hates him... in the 5 years we shared together everyone family member and one friend that ever meant anything to me... turned there back on him... than our relationship fell apart... and I'd lost the second love of my life...
...I didn't just lose the love my life... I lost my life... I lost all the 'mutual friends' we shared...
...and I have since lost my bestfriend...
...Ever wonder what it is like to truely be along... ask me and I will tell you... you will never live on love ALONE...
...Plenty of tears have fallen cause you've taken them away... Sometimes family isn't enough... Sure I have a mother and a father and a sister that I love to death... But I need someone... I need my best friend... and I need my lover to be there till the end....
Lost and lossing everything that I love...
My heart... is AGAIN broken... My parents are both unwell... I will not have them forever... My sister has her own family... My best friend has left me... and I am left picking up the pieces to a life I bearly live in...
When I was in highschool say I don't know 13 or 14... I was knocked to the ground and beaten by people I called my friends... one of those so called friends was also a cousin... After something like this... I believe you learn who your friends really are...
I continued through highschool with these people... these 'friends'... though some left and some stayed and some changed and... I made a few new 'friends'... But it wasn't really till when I left highschool I knew who my friends where...
I had two friends... the best friends that anyone could wish for... But soon I lost one of those friends too... He moved away and we grew apart and the friendship was lost... but this had me and my other friend grow closer... We have been best friends for must be close to 7 years... Known each other since we started school... But I am lossing that now too...
I never cared to have friends... Friends where people that used you... only wanted you when they wanted something... It was these 'friends' I could do without... All I ever had was my bestfriend... I am lossing her now...
I made a few friends through college and... where are they now... one moved away and never keeps contact no more... one was a lying back stabbing BITCH who changed in the few years I knew her into someone else... I hate her and I hate what she done to me... the 3rd... heh... once in a bluemoon... I seen him once since he moved back... we had a breif chat but... shit lost another in the long run haven't I...
Boyfriends... Oh sure I had a few use them and abuse them like what was done to me all my life I suppose... there where only 2 guys I have ever been with... B and X... that meant EVERYTHING to me and still do that... Was never part of my game... when B came along the game was over and forever was to be with him... because it was never going to be with X again since he'd found someone knew...
...but I love B and I could spent the rest my life with him in a heart beat... I wish to hell that things where different... EVERYONE hates him... in the 5 years we shared together everyone family member and one friend that ever meant anything to me... turned there back on him... than our relationship fell apart... and I'd lost the second love of my life...
...I didn't just lose the love my life... I lost my life... I lost all the 'mutual friends' we shared...
...and I have since lost my bestfriend...
...Ever wonder what it is like to truely be along... ask me and I will tell you... you will never live on love ALONE...
...Plenty of tears have fallen cause you've taken them away... Sometimes family isn't enough... Sure I have a mother and a father and a sister that I love to death... But I need someone... I need my best friend... and I need my lover to be there till the end....
Lost and lossing everything that I love...
My heart... is AGAIN broken... My parents are both unwell... I will not have them forever... My sister has her own family... My best friend has left me... and I am left picking up the pieces to a life I bearly live in...