rambly
well i just decided to try blogging randomly, for no reason at all. not another ANGST ANGST ANGST LJ TO THE RESCUE sorta entry.
4 months of vacation have been passing by rather quickly.... it's already July and i have spent slightly over 2 months not doing anything 'productive'. ie. not doing anything that is school-related, or work-related, or even charity/volunteer work-related. i quite enjoy this time to myself though, having absolutely nothing to do. every day is a blank slate, filled with endless possibility.......... of course i usually end up just using the computer at home until i realize i've been browsing the same sites/blogs about 5 times in a day and wondering stupidly why there are no new updates.
having nothing to do suits me just fine.... no dread, no obligation, no.. nothing. except meeting friends or just doing whatever the hell i feel like doing that day. it gets boring, but sometimes i just sit and wonder whether after i graduate i will have ever time to feel bored doing nothing.
this might be the only bits of time i have left to just be idle without being irresponsible.
AND achievement of this month: i have started to exercise again! whoopee. in the last couple of weeks i've started running on the treadmill in the gym. yesterday i ran 4km and then brisk-walked another 1.6km and thank god for treadmills because that evil machine works you relentlessly. the fear of falling off the treadmill keeps me going, srsly. sounds stupid but all i can think of for the first 10 minutes or so is: IF U DONT KEEP ON RUNNING FAST ENOUGH U WILL FALL OFF. AND DIE. AND YOUR LEGS / FINGERS/ LIMBS WILL GET CAUGHT IN THE SIDES OF THE TREADMILL AND THE ROLLY BITS WILL CRUSH THEM TO LITTLE BROKEN FRAGMENTS
etcetc repeat other various gory possibilities
1 month ago i could never have imagined running more than 2.4km at a go so to me this is a pretty big deal hahaha.
k going to stop here cos blogging makes me feel like i'm just talking about my life to... i don't know who, really! and makes me sound very self-absorbed. HRM. then again maybe the blog is supposed to serve that very purpose...
4 months of vacation have been passing by rather quickly.... it's already July and i have spent slightly over 2 months not doing anything 'productive'. ie. not doing anything that is school-related, or work-related, or even charity/volunteer work-related. i quite enjoy this time to myself though, having absolutely nothing to do. every day is a blank slate, filled with endless possibility.......... of course i usually end up just using the computer at home until i realize i've been browsing the same sites/blogs about 5 times in a day and wondering stupidly why there are no new updates.
having nothing to do suits me just fine.... no dread, no obligation, no.. nothing. except meeting friends or just doing whatever the hell i feel like doing that day. it gets boring, but sometimes i just sit and wonder whether after i graduate i will have ever time to feel bored doing nothing.
this might be the only bits of time i have left to just be idle without being irresponsible.
AND achievement of this month: i have started to exercise again! whoopee. in the last couple of weeks i've started running on the treadmill in the gym. yesterday i ran 4km and then brisk-walked another 1.6km and thank god for treadmills because that evil machine works you relentlessly. the fear of falling off the treadmill keeps me going, srsly. sounds stupid but all i can think of for the first 10 minutes or so is: IF U DONT KEEP ON RUNNING FAST ENOUGH U WILL FALL OFF. AND DIE. AND YOUR LEGS / FINGERS/ LIMBS WILL GET CAUGHT IN THE SIDES OF THE TREADMILL AND THE ROLLY BITS WILL CRUSH THEM TO LITTLE BROKEN FRAGMENTS
etcetc repeat other various gory possibilities
1 month ago i could never have imagined running more than 2.4km at a go so to me this is a pretty big deal hahaha.
k going to stop here cos blogging makes me feel like i'm just talking about my life to... i don't know who, really! and makes me sound very self-absorbed. HRM. then again maybe the blog is supposed to serve that very purpose...