can you ever think of any better way for the lost and weary travelers to go?
i'm sort of over this wittiness bit. because i'm not always "on." i'm not always cute and amusing and intellectual. but at the same time i'm not stupid. i hate how people peg you and fit you into a little box that they are comfortable with btu that really doesn't define you in the least.
i just wonder what people say behind my back. paranoia, yep, it's dandy.
at least, if the way they treat me to my face is any indication, i'm the booksmart but actually really ditzy girl who is also naive and sheltered. oh and apparently i don't forgive people either. that one too. sheeesshhh i'm just awesome, aren't i? ughhh.
i don't want a fresh start to meet new people, because this is the same general feeling people have had about me from the start. obviously it's something i'm doing, like being myself, which makes people think i am not capable of being introspective or mature somehow.
1. i shouldn't have to use unoriginal words (meaning cuss words) to sound adult.
2. i shouldn't have to be serious or grow up too fast, because in doing that one does not see the value in being young and having fun and is immature for not having that foresight.
3. being jaded should never make you cool
4. even within the people that consider themselves "unique," there is a specific set of parameters as to what's cool and what's not. so you, stop pretending you're the last holdout for individuality and an actual opinion and start giving yourself credit for what you really are: insecure clones who know how to artfully maintain a facade.
5. the fact that i believe in something more than myself does not make me any less intelligent than you are. you is the GROUP of people who have held me in contempt lately because i am a christian. YES, there is hypocrisy in christianity, just like there is hypocrisy in buddhism wiccan judaism... EVERYTHING. i can get over myself enough to invest all of myself in something that's not being "cool" or "sophisticated." atheism isn't the 'thinking person's religion.' i haven't joined some pack of zealots who blindly believe anything they're told. i make up my OWN mind about issues that pertain to me, and i've been through a lot more shit than anyone knows.
so fuck off anyone who thinks they are superior to me for any of the reasons above.
xo, l
p.s.- this really isn't aimed at anyone specific. it's just a mix of all the really annoying things people have said or done to me lately. and maybe half of it's true. i don't even know. i just sort of defied my first point by saying fuck off, but i only do it when i really mean it, not just to liven up a conversation or something moronic like that.
i'm gonna go write what i really want to say in my actual diary. check you later, kids.
i just wonder what people say behind my back. paranoia, yep, it's dandy.
at least, if the way they treat me to my face is any indication, i'm the booksmart but actually really ditzy girl who is also naive and sheltered. oh and apparently i don't forgive people either. that one too. sheeesshhh i'm just awesome, aren't i? ughhh.
i don't want a fresh start to meet new people, because this is the same general feeling people have had about me from the start. obviously it's something i'm doing, like being myself, which makes people think i am not capable of being introspective or mature somehow.
1. i shouldn't have to use unoriginal words (meaning cuss words) to sound adult.
2. i shouldn't have to be serious or grow up too fast, because in doing that one does not see the value in being young and having fun and is immature for not having that foresight.
3. being jaded should never make you cool
4. even within the people that consider themselves "unique," there is a specific set of parameters as to what's cool and what's not. so you, stop pretending you're the last holdout for individuality and an actual opinion and start giving yourself credit for what you really are: insecure clones who know how to artfully maintain a facade.
5. the fact that i believe in something more than myself does not make me any less intelligent than you are. you is the GROUP of people who have held me in contempt lately because i am a christian. YES, there is hypocrisy in christianity, just like there is hypocrisy in buddhism wiccan judaism... EVERYTHING. i can get over myself enough to invest all of myself in something that's not being "cool" or "sophisticated." atheism isn't the 'thinking person's religion.' i haven't joined some pack of zealots who blindly believe anything they're told. i make up my OWN mind about issues that pertain to me, and i've been through a lot more shit than anyone knows.
so fuck off anyone who thinks they are superior to me for any of the reasons above.
xo, l
p.s.- this really isn't aimed at anyone specific. it's just a mix of all the really annoying things people have said or done to me lately. and maybe half of it's true. i don't even know. i just sort of defied my first point by saying fuck off, but i only do it when i really mean it, not just to liven up a conversation or something moronic like that.
i'm gonna go write what i really want to say in my actual diary. check you later, kids.