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just updating because i feel so ancient by doing this... it's like reading Oedipus Rex or something. except, just going back one fad from myspace. hmmm that's kind of coollll.
by the way for those of you random people like me who would just update their livejournal for the heck of it and happen to read this, my myspace is linniewgdawg.
or, if you need this much help: www.myspace.com/linniewgdawg
yeah there you go. today has been the suck. not sucky, the definition of sucking. and last night. because my mom and i, who used to be compared to rory and lorelai gilmore all the time, are now the stereotypical, every teen movie, "my daughter is a disappointment to me" pair. and that is sort of crushing.
it's sort of like that saying that it's easier to tell the truth because when you lie you have to remember alot more. i don't have a very good memory, and i let slip the fact that thomas's parents were OUT OF TOWN. ahhh just talking about it is making me cringe. andd then all hell broke loose and now i am just like my father, a disappointment, and i almost cried at lunch. that takes alot because lunch is my favorite time of day. i think if my DOG DIED (i don't have a dog, but IF) i would probably cry every other time BUT LUNCH. that's how bad this is.
she talked about me on the phone with george while i was in the other room, with every door open so she could have the satisfaction of knowing that she was cutting me down into a smaller person every time she said i wasn't worth the rolling stones tickets or that i had disappointed her so much or that she was so pissed off. it doesn't help knowing that george will feel the same way simply out of empathy.
i couldn't help thinking how much it sucks to be the thing she wants to escape from; that she has to call george to get away from the pain in the ass that i am.
i really try, honestly, and i just made a mistake, somewhat of a big one. i'm really, really sorry.
WHY WON'T SHE BELIEVE ME?
ok that's all. no more emo.
well, not much else to put, sadly enough. rolling stones tomorrow... no thomas's tonight. no seeing everyone that came home from college. no being with other people so i don't wallow in my mistakes. just sitting at home, watching tv for the umpteenth time, getting on i.m. and letting the silence get me good and frustrated.
emoness gone. hopefully not many will read this.
by the way for those of you random people like me who would just update their livejournal for the heck of it and happen to read this, my myspace is linniewgdawg.
or, if you need this much help: www.myspace.com/linniewgdawg
yeah there you go. today has been the suck. not sucky, the definition of sucking. and last night. because my mom and i, who used to be compared to rory and lorelai gilmore all the time, are now the stereotypical, every teen movie, "my daughter is a disappointment to me" pair. and that is sort of crushing.
it's sort of like that saying that it's easier to tell the truth because when you lie you have to remember alot more. i don't have a very good memory, and i let slip the fact that thomas's parents were OUT OF TOWN. ahhh just talking about it is making me cringe. andd then all hell broke loose and now i am just like my father, a disappointment, and i almost cried at lunch. that takes alot because lunch is my favorite time of day. i think if my DOG DIED (i don't have a dog, but IF) i would probably cry every other time BUT LUNCH. that's how bad this is.
she talked about me on the phone with george while i was in the other room, with every door open so she could have the satisfaction of knowing that she was cutting me down into a smaller person every time she said i wasn't worth the rolling stones tickets or that i had disappointed her so much or that she was so pissed off. it doesn't help knowing that george will feel the same way simply out of empathy.
i couldn't help thinking how much it sucks to be the thing she wants to escape from; that she has to call george to get away from the pain in the ass that i am.
i really try, honestly, and i just made a mistake, somewhat of a big one. i'm really, really sorry.
WHY WON'T SHE BELIEVE ME?
ok that's all. no more emo.
well, not much else to put, sadly enough. rolling stones tomorrow... no thomas's tonight. no seeing everyone that came home from college. no being with other people so i don't wallow in my mistakes. just sitting at home, watching tv for the umpteenth time, getting on i.m. and letting the silence get me good and frustrated.
emoness gone. hopefully not many will read this.