Jan 09, 2005 18:04
right now i'm 6 years old. i turn off all the lights and watch the rain fall, flood the backyard, and all i want to do is lay in it. my mom would yell at me, tell me i would get sick, make me drink herbs. i feel so empty, but so full of emotions, i just want to take a hot bath and sleep under water forever. i want to love, i don't even care if i get hurt. i want to drink your heart up and feel everything that you feel, every ounce of happiness, every ounce of pain, every ounce of loneliness. today the four of us sat on the couch and i took a step out of my body and watched from the corner, everyone was touching, nobody was sad (except for the moments in the movie that made us realize what we are missing out on). we danced around the backyard with the rain pouring down and we couldn't stop laughing, i followed a stone path and my feet became one with the earth and water. when we went inside they glared at us and spoke in persian, i was laughing because i have no idea to speak persian but i wanted to yell out MAMNOOM BADNISTAM!