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Despite feeling like a total fool after failing that Physics quiz, and being a complete idiot for not going and getting a calculator with everyone else (God, I'm stupid), I was feeling very happy today.
It's like a weird optimistic happiness.
While walking in the hallway, I saw that one girl who's like.. deformed or something. I don't know what it is, but there's something wrong with her. And I smiled. Not in a malicious way, not because she looks funny. I smiled because I was thinking "There's that deformed kid." and you know how everytime you come across someone who's really different, you instantly think "OMG I can't think about anything bad about that person, because there's something wrong with them and it's not fair if I make fun of them or think mean things" but after thinking that, I smiled, because deep down in my soul, I didn't really care that she was deformed. I didn't have anything mean to think, and I didn't have the slightest inclination to make fun of her.
Sounds kinda flaky, but I don't know, it was an intense feeling. And it made me happy that there was no meanness at all in my heart at that time.
And then in CADD, there's this one kid, who's very average. He looks average (Maybe not quite ugly) and he sounds very stupid, and I think he is stupid, because he was in my Geom. class soph. year and he was an idiot. But I smiled anyway when I saw him. Again, not because he was stupid and I was making fun of him or anything. I smiled because I realized that it really doesn't matter if he's stupid and ugly, he's going to find a place in the world and be perfectly content. And the value of the world is not going to go down just because he's an idiot and he exists.
I DEFINTITELY did not get enough sleep last night.
(BTW: Anyone know anyone at all who wants a puppy? A great pyreneese puppy. Girl, white, fuzzy, right now about 1ft X 1ft. Will grow to be big, white and fuzzy with a ferocious bark? ANYONE WANT THIS PUPPY? Long story short, crazy woman gave her to us, won't take "no" for an answer and now we're trying to give her away. So if you want her, or know anyone that's looking for a dog tell me. I hate dogs. Please)
It's like a weird optimistic happiness.
While walking in the hallway, I saw that one girl who's like.. deformed or something. I don't know what it is, but there's something wrong with her. And I smiled. Not in a malicious way, not because she looks funny. I smiled because I was thinking "There's that deformed kid." and you know how everytime you come across someone who's really different, you instantly think "OMG I can't think about anything bad about that person, because there's something wrong with them and it's not fair if I make fun of them or think mean things" but after thinking that, I smiled, because deep down in my soul, I didn't really care that she was deformed. I didn't have anything mean to think, and I didn't have the slightest inclination to make fun of her.
Sounds kinda flaky, but I don't know, it was an intense feeling. And it made me happy that there was no meanness at all in my heart at that time.
And then in CADD, there's this one kid, who's very average. He looks average (Maybe not quite ugly) and he sounds very stupid, and I think he is stupid, because he was in my Geom. class soph. year and he was an idiot. But I smiled anyway when I saw him. Again, not because he was stupid and I was making fun of him or anything. I smiled because I realized that it really doesn't matter if he's stupid and ugly, he's going to find a place in the world and be perfectly content. And the value of the world is not going to go down just because he's an idiot and he exists.
I DEFINTITELY did not get enough sleep last night.
(BTW: Anyone know anyone at all who wants a puppy? A great pyreneese puppy. Girl, white, fuzzy, right now about 1ft X 1ft. Will grow to be big, white and fuzzy with a ferocious bark? ANYONE WANT THIS PUPPY? Long story short, crazy woman gave her to us, won't take "no" for an answer and now we're trying to give her away. So if you want her, or know anyone that's looking for a dog tell me. I hate dogs. Please)