darkness was not my friend

[demiluna]

I didn't sleep again last night. I tried I really did. I shut off the TV at 1:30 and just laid there in the dark. And then I had fitful nightmares all night long. I dreamt of all the things that could have happened could Nicole have left Gina's engagement party earlier or later than she had. And then it switched, it was Meredith in Nicole's place and then Alli. It was awful. My life just feels like such a mess. I must have finally dozed off this morning after I heard my mom in the shower at 520. cause I woke up to a text message at 745 and read it half asleep and thought it sad, "been looking for me." which I then tossed of thinking it was Nick and slept for another hour figuring I would call him when I woke up. So when my alarm when off at 830 I re-read the message and it was from Nicky not Nick and it said "I've been looking for you." Nicky is this chick that I meet a few months ago at Diesel the one time I was able to find it. I was never so dissappointed to receive a text in my life. And now I have been hammering away at my paper for a while it's due today. It will be done in time I just wish I could concentrate.

Well last night I made the first step to fixing a friendship that is slowing falling apart and I got a good response to my step. I have hope for the future of my friendship, which is good cause this is a friend I don't think I know how to function without in. I just hope that I never have to find out...

Please come now I think I’m falling
I’m holding on to all I think is safe
It seems I found the road to nowhere
And I’m trying to escape
I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say