College Graduate
I've been playing around online.
im sure none of the friends i had on this site are still here. But this was the first internet sites i ever had. So many years ago. Im glad that there is a distance. I'm glad there has been something expanding. So i felt it proper on a day like today- a day when significant achievement can be marked that i should stop by. dust off the old box and write again.
im not sure what reading these old post would reveal. at my core, im sure it's all the same.
someone said to me "go to college, it'll be good for you." or you know, it may not even have been those exact words- and the message of it was a lot different. When he said it, he meant "you need education Shawnna. I'm not saying this out of friendship [cause he sure as hell wasn't] and he wasn't saying it because he actually cared [because he sure as hell didn't]. he said it because it was true. I wasn't developed. I can't say i knew what develop really meant then in my life. I was surrounded by people who went no where. and i was going no where.
anyway- i hate focusing too much on crap. that's what he said. it was mean and it was him looking down at me. and he was right. I don't feel bitter about that. And i don't like him more for it. he just happened to be right about something.
Here i am. Today i finished my very last final and I have plans to teach in S. Korea after i walk.
I've made 3 short films, and i have preformed my poetry to crowded rooms of people who have rushed me afterwords to tell me how moved they were by it.
im on a path that is good because i've made it that way- i'm very happy.
im sure none of the friends i had on this site are still here. But this was the first internet sites i ever had. So many years ago. Im glad that there is a distance. I'm glad there has been something expanding. So i felt it proper on a day like today- a day when significant achievement can be marked that i should stop by. dust off the old box and write again.
im not sure what reading these old post would reveal. at my core, im sure it's all the same.
someone said to me "go to college, it'll be good for you." or you know, it may not even have been those exact words- and the message of it was a lot different. When he said it, he meant "you need education Shawnna. I'm not saying this out of friendship [cause he sure as hell wasn't] and he wasn't saying it because he actually cared [because he sure as hell didn't]. he said it because it was true. I wasn't developed. I can't say i knew what develop really meant then in my life. I was surrounded by people who went no where. and i was going no where.
anyway- i hate focusing too much on crap. that's what he said. it was mean and it was him looking down at me. and he was right. I don't feel bitter about that. And i don't like him more for it. he just happened to be right about something.
Here i am. Today i finished my very last final and I have plans to teach in S. Korea after i walk.
I've made 3 short films, and i have preformed my poetry to crowded rooms of people who have rushed me afterwords to tell me how moved they were by it.
im on a path that is good because i've made it that way- i'm very happy.