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i don't really know what i'm feeling like at the moment. i tried to write it down properly but failed. i haven't written in my real diary for months, it's sad and i'm angry with myself over it. i'm always tired now, frustrated with myself for doing stuff i shouldn't be, i only have three more hours until work and i've done NOTHING constructive with myself. i hate myself for being so SLOW, why can't i DO anything? i just sit here and worry, instead of getting it done. so much to do, and not much time, only two weeks left really, then it all gets hectic, and i've got lots to fit in, all the reading and essays that i should do, one i have to, and all the sorting stuff out for next term, i've got involved with so much that it's scary. i don't know what to do with myself, i can mentally kick myself constantly and i still DO NOTHING. i may have to be more drastic. i don't have much stuff STARTED, and nothing finished.