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I've been going back and reading ancient LiveJournal entries.
I was a stupid kid. flyswatter and robo_rob really gave me some sound advice.
And I probably knew it at the time...
But it's so hard to learn from example. It's all about the experience.
It's all just so funny now.
All the hated toward Josh.
And the polar extremes with Phillip. The love and hate and betrayal...
Drama with AJ.
And Jason.
Wow, I was nuts for him. He is definitly a great guy, but we could have made the best of friends if I didn't spend so much time and energy being emotional and shy.
God I was so emo.
Hell, I still kind of am.
And reading old LJ entries made me realize that I don't ever make new paragraphs and that is a strain on the eyes.
So what have I learned since High School?
The world never stops spinning.
Don't sweat the small stuff.
New York is beautiful and bitter sweet.
Damn, I made some mistakes.
I can finally join the ranks of "If I knew then what I know now" people.
But I guess it would be silly to have regrets.
I had a bit of an anxiety attack yesterday. But I just went for a run and then I felt better. I didn't freak out or do or say something destructive.
I actually felt silly afterward. Silly, but I guess motivated.
Things have got to get serious around here.
Were not struggeling, but soon David and Micheal are leaveing and we will have to pay for this place ourselves. I know we can do it, but it all makes me so nervous. I guess it's just one of those "I can't afford to live" moments common to the typical middle class American experience.
I just need to go for more runs.
I was a stupid kid. flyswatter and robo_rob really gave me some sound advice.
And I probably knew it at the time...
But it's so hard to learn from example. It's all about the experience.
It's all just so funny now.
All the hated toward Josh.
And the polar extremes with Phillip. The love and hate and betrayal...
Drama with AJ.
And Jason.
Wow, I was nuts for him. He is definitly a great guy, but we could have made the best of friends if I didn't spend so much time and energy being emotional and shy.
God I was so emo.
Hell, I still kind of am.
And reading old LJ entries made me realize that I don't ever make new paragraphs and that is a strain on the eyes.
So what have I learned since High School?
The world never stops spinning.
Don't sweat the small stuff.
New York is beautiful and bitter sweet.
Damn, I made some mistakes.
I can finally join the ranks of "If I knew then what I know now" people.
But I guess it would be silly to have regrets.
I had a bit of an anxiety attack yesterday. But I just went for a run and then I felt better. I didn't freak out or do or say something destructive.
I actually felt silly afterward. Silly, but I guess motivated.
Things have got to get serious around here.
Were not struggeling, but soon David and Micheal are leaveing and we will have to pay for this place ourselves. I know we can do it, but it all makes me so nervous. I guess it's just one of those "I can't afford to live" moments common to the typical middle class American experience.
I just need to go for more runs.