every day is a winding road...
I find myself in a mix of emotions taking the form of aimlessness and inability to know myself or make long-term choices. I was not chosen for the position of Special Recreation Supervisor at Willamalane; though by now that seems so long ago and far away.
I am feeling a strange restlessness that seems to crave spontaneity in accordance with some familiarity, and also my level of expertise remains unclear to me. Who am I to say I know how to solve problems and treat those who are considered "mentally ill"? Who am I to claim that I would make a great HR manager just because I have a degree?
I am enjoying working the noc (graveyard) shift within my caregiving job, the same job as I have held three times over the past ten years (count 'em, ten, yikes!) and back to full-time status and recently promoted. I am earning some (not a lot) of money and catching up with the big boom that occurs when one discontinues receipt of school grants ... Within this I am becoming more in touch with myself through carefully earning for my family (a grand feeling) and, at the same time, not wanting to "settle" for the smallish wages I returned to school to rebel against. In addition it is easy, but I apply minimal mental exertion and mostly physical/emotional. It seems as if I am ready for more, but I don't always know.
Nonetheless, in the interest of money, I have applied for several jobs over the last two weeks. I already have a second interview on Friday for a cool place, though am much less excited about this job because it doesn't pay well (starting wage is nearly what I make already, sigh) and because I don't know if something better down the road is waiting for me. I could always give it a shot, but in the same vein, may not be a worth dumping my old job. Sigh. I have so much to think about I could just explode..
Ideally I guess I could stay where I am and move on up, though it may be more stress than it's really worth. There are lots of levels and different jobs there, though some of them I wouldn't volunteer for long-term. I don't know if I am not considered qualified for the upper executive positions or if folks just assume that I am on to new things since I have been caregiving for so long. Perhaps I am just needing to put myself out there. I was asked the other day to be promoted again, after only a couple of days being promoted. Perhaps I am being too hard on myself, after all...
I need to sit down and figure out the best approaches to all of my potential patrons, they need to know what I can do for them.
I am feeling a strange restlessness that seems to crave spontaneity in accordance with some familiarity, and also my level of expertise remains unclear to me. Who am I to say I know how to solve problems and treat those who are considered "mentally ill"? Who am I to claim that I would make a great HR manager just because I have a degree?
I am enjoying working the noc (graveyard) shift within my caregiving job, the same job as I have held three times over the past ten years (count 'em, ten, yikes!) and back to full-time status and recently promoted. I am earning some (not a lot) of money and catching up with the big boom that occurs when one discontinues receipt of school grants ... Within this I am becoming more in touch with myself through carefully earning for my family (a grand feeling) and, at the same time, not wanting to "settle" for the smallish wages I returned to school to rebel against. In addition it is easy, but I apply minimal mental exertion and mostly physical/emotional. It seems as if I am ready for more, but I don't always know.
Nonetheless, in the interest of money, I have applied for several jobs over the last two weeks. I already have a second interview on Friday for a cool place, though am much less excited about this job because it doesn't pay well (starting wage is nearly what I make already, sigh) and because I don't know if something better down the road is waiting for me. I could always give it a shot, but in the same vein, may not be a worth dumping my old job. Sigh. I have so much to think about I could just explode..
Ideally I guess I could stay where I am and move on up, though it may be more stress than it's really worth. There are lots of levels and different jobs there, though some of them I wouldn't volunteer for long-term. I don't know if I am not considered qualified for the upper executive positions or if folks just assume that I am on to new things since I have been caregiving for so long. Perhaps I am just needing to put myself out there. I was asked the other day to be promoted again, after only a couple of days being promoted. Perhaps I am being too hard on myself, after all...
I need to sit down and figure out the best approaches to all of my potential patrons, they need to know what I can do for them.