Elements of thinking and being transcending time and space...
“doing” is my mode... today I was wonderfully enthusiastic and feeling a sense of awe in the synchronicities of one simple day, a day filled with work and intermittent personal pleasures, and intertwined with feelings of relief and depth, nothing was bringing me down today... I feel the changing of seasons and the definitive lapse of time, signaling forseeable and exciting ends, closing the process of my education...
I have executed acrobatic magic in order to swindle and thwart logistical and financial issues as I struggle to reach the finish line free and clear and in control, to do this alongside work and parenting, as always but not by any means easily, holding on for one more ride and not losing this wonderful sense of self, newness, and wonder all in the process...
In the end, I have picked up two additional courses, yoga and self defense, as satisfiers for my lenders who need to see half time status, but even moreso for personal fulfillment as I cry out and kick the padded wall repeatedly, then release and relax with exercise of my body and mind. These are ways of caring for myself that I have only practiced intermittently, and not altogether consistently well. I am so blessed for this process, the process of climbing up, enveloped, pushing, inching outward, opening up, like a butterfly.... seeing the transformation of my new world, thinking my thoughts in newfound freedom, the segueing of chapters, the application of my wisdom, the current of change upon me...
I have executed acrobatic magic in order to swindle and thwart logistical and financial issues as I struggle to reach the finish line free and clear and in control, to do this alongside work and parenting, as always but not by any means easily, holding on for one more ride and not losing this wonderful sense of self, newness, and wonder all in the process...
In the end, I have picked up two additional courses, yoga and self defense, as satisfiers for my lenders who need to see half time status, but even moreso for personal fulfillment as I cry out and kick the padded wall repeatedly, then release and relax with exercise of my body and mind. These are ways of caring for myself that I have only practiced intermittently, and not altogether consistently well. I am so blessed for this process, the process of climbing up, enveloped, pushing, inching outward, opening up, like a butterfly.... seeing the transformation of my new world, thinking my thoughts in newfound freedom, the segueing of chapters, the application of my wisdom, the current of change upon me...