creative writing, i guess

[dementria]

Sometimes

It just feels too hard.

I'm afraid I'm set in my ways

And terrified of failure.

Some are pressuring me

And I push them away

Even when I don't want to.

Sometimes

I wonder what my life would have been like

If one decision was made differently.

If I had known

It would change everything.

I often wonder

If she blames herself.

Or if she's ashamed of me

As I am.

I can't make them understand.

Sometimes

I look for valid "excuses".

But that's all they turn out to be.

Excuses.

I just wish I had a problem.

Right?

Something to lay all of

My short-comings on.

Sometimes

It just feels too hard

To get up.

< /end emo time >