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It's really strange.
Months ago now, it would be even stranger.
A long story, and too much to get into. But those who know what I'm talking about, that is good enough.
I'm feeling a bit bizarre, as everything starts to set in.
But I'll be fine.
I've known thekingnero for.. geez. 5 years. Easily. Which is bizarre in itself. And in all this time, we've had pretty much a steady stream, if not daily contact. All through email, and MSN predominantly. We had never spoken on the phone, or anything. But pretty much not a day went by that we didn't speak.
A year ago, things between us blew up because I started seeing mad_mortician .. but that's nothing to be dug up.
In that time, thekingnero and my best friend articia22 got closer. I thought nothing of it, I thought they were just friends. But when he started buying her gifts, as he did for me. I knew something was up. Again, nothing to be dug up.
All in all, they had become much closer.. to the point that thekingnero invited articia22 to visit him in the U.S.
This whole thing in general had thrown me off for quite a while, and quite a bit. I wasn't getting along with either of the two, because I was outraged by it, and jealous, and felt betrayed and backstabbed, and lied to.. the list is endless. And me being as stubborn as I am. And also possessive, as I viewed thekingnero as being 'mine'. Why? I have no idea. In a sense I still do. I felt he was taken away. We hadn't even talked on the phone, and now they talked all the time.
I felt left out.
But, all in all, and much time. I realized that my friendship with both of them was more important than becoming enemies, or trying to sabotage them. So I let it go. It doesn't mean I agree with it, as I still don't at all. And they both know that. But, I've accepted it and moved on, as it's nothing I could have stopped even if I had tried, as I did try. So there was nothing I could do but take it in stride and deal.
I warned them both, that as the day drew near to articia22's departure to Little Chute that I would feel uncomfortable. And I do. Uneasy.. strange. I don't know. And poor mad_mortician is the one that will get to hear about it tomorrow when it becomes real. He has been warned as well.
But for now, I'm still dealing with it. Let's hope it stays as easy as this.
Months ago now, it would be even stranger.
A long story, and too much to get into. But those who know what I'm talking about, that is good enough.
I'm feeling a bit bizarre, as everything starts to set in.
But I'll be fine.
I've known thekingnero for.. geez. 5 years. Easily. Which is bizarre in itself. And in all this time, we've had pretty much a steady stream, if not daily contact. All through email, and MSN predominantly. We had never spoken on the phone, or anything. But pretty much not a day went by that we didn't speak.
A year ago, things between us blew up because I started seeing mad_mortician .. but that's nothing to be dug up.
In that time, thekingnero and my best friend articia22 got closer. I thought nothing of it, I thought they were just friends. But when he started buying her gifts, as he did for me. I knew something was up. Again, nothing to be dug up.
All in all, they had become much closer.. to the point that thekingnero invited articia22 to visit him in the U.S.
This whole thing in general had thrown me off for quite a while, and quite a bit. I wasn't getting along with either of the two, because I was outraged by it, and jealous, and felt betrayed and backstabbed, and lied to.. the list is endless. And me being as stubborn as I am. And also possessive, as I viewed thekingnero as being 'mine'. Why? I have no idea. In a sense I still do. I felt he was taken away. We hadn't even talked on the phone, and now they talked all the time.
I felt left out.
But, all in all, and much time. I realized that my friendship with both of them was more important than becoming enemies, or trying to sabotage them. So I let it go. It doesn't mean I agree with it, as I still don't at all. And they both know that. But, I've accepted it and moved on, as it's nothing I could have stopped even if I had tried, as I did try. So there was nothing I could do but take it in stride and deal.
I warned them both, that as the day drew near to articia22's departure to Little Chute that I would feel uncomfortable. And I do. Uneasy.. strange. I don't know. And poor mad_mortician is the one that will get to hear about it tomorrow when it becomes real. He has been warned as well.
But for now, I'm still dealing with it. Let's hope it stays as easy as this.