I've been running for miles...

[dementedkermit]

I keep running into these brick walls. I keep falling into the same pits. I keep repeating the same cycles.

Am I doing anything for myself anymore?

Am I living this way to fit in with others?

These are all things I have to take into consideration.

I can't have fun anymore.

I'm always fucking questioning everything I do.

"Do I really want this? Or do I just want this because I know everyone else around me will accept me because I want this?"

Have I been effected by peer pressure my whole life, or have I been doing things for myself, and my interests, and my goals.

Certainly not my goals.

Look at me now; drop out, pot-head, burnout, didn't graduate, minimum wage job, still dependent, etc.

Man, I always perpetuate the same bullshit in my mind over and fucking over again.

Every second of my existence, I'm always questioning everything I do, but never putting action to any of it.

Have I been alone too long, or is this the REASON I've been alone for so long...

ARGH!

I brought this plague upon my self. I created this demon. It's up to me to vanquish it myself.

I will not be slaughtered by the savage beast of self-doubt.

I will not be self-defeating.

I will not sit back and watch anymore.

ACTION. ACTION. ACTION.