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Today I found out that my father has asked my mother for a divorce. This is the second time that he has done this that I'm aware of, and it seems like it's really going to happen this time.
My mom is being really weird about it, and dad is apparently trying to stay in the good graces of myself and my sister, but I wouldn't really know because I've been avoiding him at my friends' house.
Anyhow, I bought myself a lot of junk food and ordered a couple books and a dvd online. I have very low impulse control when I'm unhappy, but now I'm full of little donuts and ramen and incredibly delicious orange juice.
Fuck this. I feel like I won't have a home to come back to from the dorm anymore. I feel like I should pack up everything I own in preparation of moving out of there. And I worry for mom if I'm not around for her. I mean, she has enough problems without having to deal with them without someone else there to at least drive, even if he doesn't do much else.
I don't think I want to go see movies with him any more.
I don't know. Maybe if he earns it back from me. I'd be sad with just mom, I think, a little, and I do sort of get along with him sometimes. He can be nice when he tries.
I think that's what it was. Maybe he felt like after so long he shouldn't have to try anymore? But I think that's kind of stupid, and in that case it just means that there's something wrong with him, that he resents it. Everyone in my family is crazy, I just wish they wouldn't fuck up the rest of us in the process.
I just want mom to be okay. And maybe I want this not to affect my education monetarily, and maybe I want not to have to adjust to a new home while living in the dorms, and maybe I want him to not screw us over because he feels the undying need to leave and take mom's money to buy an RV or some shit.
My mom is being really weird about it, and dad is apparently trying to stay in the good graces of myself and my sister, but I wouldn't really know because I've been avoiding him at my friends' house.
Anyhow, I bought myself a lot of junk food and ordered a couple books and a dvd online. I have very low impulse control when I'm unhappy, but now I'm full of little donuts and ramen and incredibly delicious orange juice.
Fuck this. I feel like I won't have a home to come back to from the dorm anymore. I feel like I should pack up everything I own in preparation of moving out of there. And I worry for mom if I'm not around for her. I mean, she has enough problems without having to deal with them without someone else there to at least drive, even if he doesn't do much else.
I don't think I want to go see movies with him any more.
I don't know. Maybe if he earns it back from me. I'd be sad with just mom, I think, a little, and I do sort of get along with him sometimes. He can be nice when he tries.
I think that's what it was. Maybe he felt like after so long he shouldn't have to try anymore? But I think that's kind of stupid, and in that case it just means that there's something wrong with him, that he resents it. Everyone in my family is crazy, I just wish they wouldn't fuck up the rest of us in the process.
I just want mom to be okay. And maybe I want this not to affect my education monetarily, and maybe I want not to have to adjust to a new home while living in the dorms, and maybe I want him to not screw us over because he feels the undying need to leave and take mom's money to buy an RV or some shit.