The sorrows of life supress me...
I got sooo drunk last night. *sigh* I had no other option... It was either get drunk...or sit and think about the things I had done yesterday. I can't stand knowing I hurt somebody...
I feel like a waste of life. =/ Trevor claims he's okay...but I know he's not..he will barely talk to me now..I think I ruined a great friendship. =(
Dixie is soo mad at me...after she said what she did...I called her and told her to come back up to finish talking about it. Well..it kinda slipped that I still haven't let what Amber and I had goo...that I can't be with a grrl right now. And when I told her that if she really did love me..she would wait until I got over this..she started crying again..and left. I want to talk to her sooo damn bad right now. I need to make things ok again. I want her to at least be my friend. =( Why does my life have to be soo fucked up?
I need someone to hang out with 24/7 without drama...I need to get my mind off of shit. Dixie was supossed to be that person. But I fucked up. I'm soo scared that nobody will ever speak to me again...I've lost soo many already...I can't loose those that I have left.
To all my friendz...I love you all...very much.
Dixie..I'm soo sorry..please..please forgive me for being mean...I know I was kind of harsh last night..but I was scared and didn't know what else to say...I want you to be in my life..at least as a friend.
Trevor..I'm really sorry..but you have to understand where I'm coming from on that. Maybe one day...hopefully soon.
I feel like a waste of life. =/ Trevor claims he's okay...but I know he's not..he will barely talk to me now..I think I ruined a great friendship. =(
Dixie is soo mad at me...after she said what she did...I called her and told her to come back up to finish talking about it. Well..it kinda slipped that I still haven't let what Amber and I had goo...that I can't be with a grrl right now. And when I told her that if she really did love me..she would wait until I got over this..she started crying again..and left. I want to talk to her sooo damn bad right now. I need to make things ok again. I want her to at least be my friend. =( Why does my life have to be soo fucked up?
I need someone to hang out with 24/7 without drama...I need to get my mind off of shit. Dixie was supossed to be that person. But I fucked up. I'm soo scared that nobody will ever speak to me again...I've lost soo many already...I can't loose those that I have left.
To all my friendz...I love you all...very much.
Dixie..I'm soo sorry..please..please forgive me for being mean...I know I was kind of harsh last night..but I was scared and didn't know what else to say...I want you to be in my life..at least as a friend.
Trevor..I'm really sorry..but you have to understand where I'm coming from on that. Maybe one day...hopefully soon.