Jul 21, 2005 14:32
im a lil distressed. naw fuck that im upset but i new it would happen i was setting myself up for defeat getting hooked on someone who really prolly wasnt hooked on me , but yo eyes dont lie and i read well. but i was leaving and truthfuly i could do nothing else but leave. what the fuck wouldi have given them had i stayed. fuct morals. minimal touches. i couldnt do that. i couldnt fuck up the fisrt time. but yo i m here for a year at least and then im off to where hes at and if i meet him again that wouldb e cool but yo, the idea that i passed soemthing that great up is crazy CRAZY!
my fucking house has roaches so i stayed up with them all night and played them some missy elliot and we danced and talked about life. bruno had a touch life hes not originally from here, he had to defect. we found solice in each other . at least ive made one pal.
im starting to feel my insides move, this feels like heroin withdrawl. this shit is hard i jsut need to focus focus focus. one year alot can happen and hopefully it does . i need a mission.