I Thought I Was The Shit
So going to the poetry reading at school tonight really opened my eyes to something and in a split second as I was balancing my boots, tying my durag, and running to the car in the wind crying...The poem came rushing over me like a flood... My muse said:
I thought I was the shit...
Jus cause I was dark skinned with pearly whites
Model, Actor, Dancer, Singer
Yea that made me better alright
I thought I was the shit...
cause I was popular, friendliest, star athlete
best dancer, best dressed, best actor, best kisser
best poet, best story teller, best fuck, the best luck
Yea that made me the shit...
I thought I was the shit...
cause I got 55 messages in one day
niggas and bitches wanting me this and that way
the power of the dick forcing them to stay
not sway, got whatever i wanted and they'd pay
i had them around my fingers
my scent on their pillow lingers
my image implanted in their fantasies
feeling themselves at night while i dreamed
Shit... I was the shit it seemed...
I thought I was the shit...
cause I could take the dick to jaw
deep throat, take it how you wanted
moan deep and make you think you was the shit
but really i rotated them hips
and knew I was the best at riding that shit
Hmm you ain't know?
I thought I was the shit...
cause I could put 2 words together, make em rhyme, and call it a poem
let people read em, never knew i felt all alone
13 being kicked out my parents home
for being homo-sexual
fending for myself and to reclaim my own
sanity, prosperity, youth, and a natural proclivity
for adoration, for ego stroking, and attention
from a male face i could call "daddy"
and he could call me his "Baby"
but im really not ya baby
im just sleeping with you for the minute
get the minute attention and feel better about myself
cause i couldn't get it from my father
Yea that's it
I was the shit...
I knew I wasn't the shit when I walked in and you were with her
Tears clouding my vision, all a blur
Stumbling endlessly over words like "Fuck you. Bitch. Faggot. Sissy. Slut. Whore"
Words I'd never thrown at anyone before
But your infidelity threw me off balance, had me tripping, slipping
and feeling like I'm lower than shit you just shit out...
Flushing me from your mind and your heart
Yea you slapped me in my face til my dark skin turned blue
Yea you made me feel like I was the shit in my faux reality
Yea I woke up the next morning, stronger than a cold hearted bitch
Never once cried and never once flinched...
Oops...thas a lie
That's what I woulda done if I really was the shit
I thought I was the shit...
Jus cause I was dark skinned with pearly whites
Model, Actor, Dancer, Singer
Yea that made me better alright
I thought I was the shit...
cause I was popular, friendliest, star athlete
best dancer, best dressed, best actor, best kisser
best poet, best story teller, best fuck, the best luck
Yea that made me the shit...
I thought I was the shit...
cause I got 55 messages in one day
niggas and bitches wanting me this and that way
the power of the dick forcing them to stay
not sway, got whatever i wanted and they'd pay
i had them around my fingers
my scent on their pillow lingers
my image implanted in their fantasies
feeling themselves at night while i dreamed
Shit... I was the shit it seemed...
I thought I was the shit...
cause I could take the dick to jaw
deep throat, take it how you wanted
moan deep and make you think you was the shit
but really i rotated them hips
and knew I was the best at riding that shit
Hmm you ain't know?
I thought I was the shit...
cause I could put 2 words together, make em rhyme, and call it a poem
let people read em, never knew i felt all alone
13 being kicked out my parents home
for being homo-sexual
fending for myself and to reclaim my own
sanity, prosperity, youth, and a natural proclivity
for adoration, for ego stroking, and attention
from a male face i could call "daddy"
and he could call me his "Baby"
but im really not ya baby
im just sleeping with you for the minute
get the minute attention and feel better about myself
cause i couldn't get it from my father
Yea that's it
I was the shit...
I knew I wasn't the shit when I walked in and you were with her
Tears clouding my vision, all a blur
Stumbling endlessly over words like "Fuck you. Bitch. Faggot. Sissy. Slut. Whore"
Words I'd never thrown at anyone before
But your infidelity threw me off balance, had me tripping, slipping
and feeling like I'm lower than shit you just shit out...
Flushing me from your mind and your heart
Yea you slapped me in my face til my dark skin turned blue
Yea you made me feel like I was the shit in my faux reality
Yea I woke up the next morning, stronger than a cold hearted bitch
Never once cried and never once flinched...
Oops...thas a lie
That's what I woulda done if I really was the shit