Happy Birthday to me
yes, it was my birthday on wednesday. I am 26 years old. amazing huh. my birthday was pretty good overall. i didn't get much but it was still a good day. i think the only gift i did get was $20.00 from Donald. mom and dad are getting me a new Bible since i gave mine to Guy. Tami might be getting me Black and White 2. as far as anyone else getting me anything, i have no clue. if you didn't though, dont worry about it. for those out there who wished me a happy birthday, that was enough. made me feel good every time i saw someone wish me one. if you didn't wish me one, then I hope you burn in hell. not really. but if you did wish it to me like 5 times, then i wish you would burn in hell. well not really either.
one good thing did happen on my birthday. i got a letter from marshall telling me i can come back on academic forgiveness. i have no intention of going back to marshall though. gonna try to get into state next year. going for computer classes. figured if i was good at computers, then i might as well get something so that i can at least enjoy my job. it was nice though that marshall let me know that if i wanted to go back, i can. it's an option at least.
man, it's been a while since i last wrote. i didn't realize it was that long ago. i really need to update more.
Guy is not living here anymore. we got Ben and then he moved in with his mom. in a way it's kinda nice he's not here. i'm not saying that i didn't want him here. i had absolutely no problem with him being here really. the only thing that i didn't like was that while he was here, for some reason i felt like i didn't have any privacy. like right now no one is up except me. when he was here, he would be up. it's weird. i know he didn't invade my space or anything like that. it was just him being here that felt like i didn't have any. i forgot how boring it was when i'm by myself. from what i can tell, things are going better with him and his mom. keep him in your prayers though.
been trying to go to church when i can. right now they got me on sundays. it sucks. only time i can go to church now is on wednesdays. i miss being there on sundays. i really need to fix this. my problem is that the other night i was going to and just as i was about to, i had a massive anxiety attack. in two seconds my heart went from like 85 (which is actually normal for me) to like 190. only thing i could think was that i needed to leave and leave now. it took like 25 - 30 minutes for me to calm down. so i know it's not gonna be easy to ask for this off. but i need to. i want to go to church. work has been busy though. very busy. they need to bring in more people and quickly.
thought i had more to say but apparently i dont. oh well. i guess i'll leave you to read this then. hope you have a great day and always praying for you.
C J
one good thing did happen on my birthday. i got a letter from marshall telling me i can come back on academic forgiveness. i have no intention of going back to marshall though. gonna try to get into state next year. going for computer classes. figured if i was good at computers, then i might as well get something so that i can at least enjoy my job. it was nice though that marshall let me know that if i wanted to go back, i can. it's an option at least.
man, it's been a while since i last wrote. i didn't realize it was that long ago. i really need to update more.
Guy is not living here anymore. we got Ben and then he moved in with his mom. in a way it's kinda nice he's not here. i'm not saying that i didn't want him here. i had absolutely no problem with him being here really. the only thing that i didn't like was that while he was here, for some reason i felt like i didn't have any privacy. like right now no one is up except me. when he was here, he would be up. it's weird. i know he didn't invade my space or anything like that. it was just him being here that felt like i didn't have any. i forgot how boring it was when i'm by myself. from what i can tell, things are going better with him and his mom. keep him in your prayers though.
been trying to go to church when i can. right now they got me on sundays. it sucks. only time i can go to church now is on wednesdays. i miss being there on sundays. i really need to fix this. my problem is that the other night i was going to and just as i was about to, i had a massive anxiety attack. in two seconds my heart went from like 85 (which is actually normal for me) to like 190. only thing i could think was that i needed to leave and leave now. it took like 25 - 30 minutes for me to calm down. so i know it's not gonna be easy to ask for this off. but i need to. i want to go to church. work has been busy though. very busy. they need to bring in more people and quickly.
thought i had more to say but apparently i dont. oh well. i guess i'll leave you to read this then. hope you have a great day and always praying for you.
C J