Shh
Right now Im feeling a lil.... um emotional... ew I never get that way and here I am. Life is well just missing some people that have been important to me and i barley talk to anymore. I log on to this lame sight to see what some old friends are up to, which I always wonder why i did it afterwards all the time, cause I know im not missing much. There is one that I just cant push aside and I know she is becoming more and more happy which in turns makes me smile but at the same time wonder. Im ok within my own skin just wonder if I will ever be completely happy, dont get me wrong Im ok for the most part but when Im home alone Im able to let that fake smile go and just be here. I wonder if I will ever meet that one that will ever make me whole and that I will keep? for now Im left here within my colored walls in the quiet...mmmmm quiet, it is so nice. Im tired today....
So my job, I have seen some crazy ass crashed cars and some really messed up people some of which did not make it a week after I talked to them due to broken ribs, punctured lungs and head trama. Driving is a whole new game now that I see and have to sort through the blood and guts to see how it was that the car folded, making sure it did it in all the right spots, to find out the max crush of the cars and its just odd. IF YOU DONT WEAR A SEAT BELT YOU BETTER START.
So my job, I have seen some crazy ass crashed cars and some really messed up people some of which did not make it a week after I talked to them due to broken ribs, punctured lungs and head trama. Driving is a whole new game now that I see and have to sort through the blood and guts to see how it was that the car folded, making sure it did it in all the right spots, to find out the max crush of the cars and its just odd. IF YOU DONT WEAR A SEAT BELT YOU BETTER START.