tired

[delusional44]

im tired of feeling like nothing turns out right
im tired of feeling worthless
im tired of being compared
im tired of trying so hard and not getting anywhere near you want to be
im tired of failure
im tired of rejection
im tired of worrying and wanting and not finding my place
im tired of wishing people would see but really dont
im tired of trying to impress
im tired of not wanting what i want and going for what i want
im tired of feeling forced
im tired of not even understanding me
im tired of putting blame on people me included
im tired of thinking
im tired of reflecting
im tired of this earth
i wont kill myself.
not even close to thinking about it.
but i really am tired now.