on life
there are so many things i've come to realize these past few days. it's only been a weekend away from the rest of the world, but it's been a good time to reflect on certain things in my life.
spent the weekend in baguio, secluded from all friends, just stayed with family and honestly, i cant say it was bad. it was pretty boring (cos really there's nothing to do in baguio) but it was so relaxing, nonetheless plus the weather was really nice, so ya. there. its all good.
during those 4 days i spent apart from everyone, i've realized so many things not only about myself but about everyone around me. lola loves to please herself in the garden and lights up whenever you talk to her about lolo tootsie. she cant live without movies and vegetables and fruits. everytime you talk to her about tita nan, she ends up diverting the kwento into a traveling spree "pupunta tayo sa _____ sa susunod na pasko." which never really happens but she likes to think that way just so family can be together. and when lola talks to us about the important things in her life, her eyeballs just pop out of her sockets and her eyes squinch more than they usually do. though she's aged through the years, my lola's still so beautiful. i'm not biased when i say this, but she certainly is the most beautiful grandmother i've ever seen. i wish i had her genes so i'd age as well as she has. and be like her. i <3 my lola soooo much!
my parents are different. they surprise you when you least expect them too. i guess we spent a good time bonding in baguio which was great! i'm sooo happy that i'm so close to my mom now. she knows EVERYTHING about me and she's begun defending me in areas i never expected her to. even when my kuya doesnt agree, she's there backing me up cos im so open to her. i love my mom. and my dad for just being so funny. just this past week, they both opened up to me about several worries i had. reassurance from parents is the best feeling in the world.. aside from serving God, ofcourse, but ya. i LOVE my parents.
bea and i just get along soooo well. there's not much to say about botch only because there's TOO much to say about her. basta, i love botchtyla krakova! =)
one thing i really realized in baguio though, was how pecafeul i've been. i was just talking about this to friends, actually. it's like ever since, i was renewed, my life has only changed for the better. it's a totally different and inexplicable high that you get when you know where you're going and you just go ONE WAY. upon reflecting, i realized that the only way i can ever be fully at peace with myself is if i live for a purpose nad though i am unceratin of my purpose, the road that leads to it will eventually show me where i should be. just ONE WAY. You're the only one that i could live for.
friends. i love friends. i realized how much we hang on to eachother for everything. three friends called me while i was in baguio just to say they missed me. aw. gawd, how i love my friends. SOO MUCH. friends, family, God. God, family and friends. just all love. and it's all cos of one way. the only way. i love the great man above. to death. and beyond.
here's one SHOUT OUT to KATHY PONCE!!!
kath, i'm gonna miss you SOOO much. thanks for ALWAYS ALWAYS being there, good times and bad. you've helped me stand when i couldn't anymore and you've given me more strength than you could ever know. i've always prayed about my path and my purpose in life, but you've shown me that the only way to know you're purpose is ONE WAY and now ive found the inner peace i've always wanted. you, among the many people i've come to know, have truly touched me into finding happiness with God. and it is through you that i see Him working. i guess that's why i cling to you more often than a lot because He truly manifests Himself in you and i can vividly see that. every single time. thanks for bringing me back, kath. i love you forever and pray for you and only the best for you! have fun in europe!!!! all my hugs and kisses! MMMMWWWAAAAHHHH!!!