stay in school, dont do drugs, and drink your milk
so life as usual, is kind of dumb right now. Boys have proven to be just that....boys. Parents have proven to be dicks, stupid selfish pieces of shit who think im just a paycheck, or a bill. Friends have proven to be anything but, just back stabbing ass holes who have no problem with the fact that there's a year between us left in ruins. the only people who haven't really been fucks are the people that when i left here i wanted nothing to do with. Maybe they just haven't shown their true colors, but something tells me that those people have a loyalty to me that i didn't follow very well. I didn't fuck them over when i left, but they became less of a priority. but one thing that is always true and i can always count on, is that people who belong in this town never change. I can always come back and its like i never ever left. the same humor, the same drama, the same everything. its kind of creepy, but in a way comforting. Arizona was not that way. I left for a month, and when i got back the world was flipped upside down. It was like I had never been there in my life. It didn't even feel the same driving in. But for some reason, i feel like its my fault that it happened. the people i corrupted are now corrupting, spreading my mistake, creating a town of fucking tweekers. My bad. the world is a big cycle, of innocence, corruption, corrupting, cleaning up, and watching those that you corrupted ruin their lives. Not everyone cleans up, and thats why even if you do drugs, Tell OTHER PEOPLE NOT TO. just because you have the strength to clean up doesn't mean that someone else does.