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How does one know when change is neccesary? When is it time to stop being patient, and to move on? My life is pretty good right now, but I feel stagnent. I know where I want to go, and I can probabaly get there eventually if I stay where I'm at. But that's as unknown as any other factor in my life. What's different is that in the past when I talked about such things, I was desperate to get out of my life situation. At this point, I can be pretty happy and comfortable where I'm at. Its just that I'm concerned that I will get stuck with this new comfort, and just sit here and go no further. I get these concerns mainly from the fact that I have living examples that I work with. I can think of at least two people that work in my building who could have gone much further in life. They themselves admit that they would have been much happier had they gone on to do different things in life. But they got comfortable, and they had families, and now they will not risk the security they have now to persue anything greater then they have already accomplished. And that's why I'm afraid that if I don't kick myself in the ass now and get moving that I will be stuck where I'm at forever.
On that note, I have an interview on friday with a company that does somewhat interesting work. I'd be doing R&D into new boiler and water heater designs. I have to see what they have to offer, though. I can afford to be a little picky, for a change. On another front, I've been in a relationship for the past 9 months. We almost broke up last week. The main issue was something that has been a downfall in previous relationships for me. But the more I analyze the situation (which isn't always a good thing) the more I am seeing that it might not be me this time. I seem to be the one she takes it out on if she is stressing about something. I can understand that, but I'm questioning weather I am willing to put up with it. And there's other bits and pieces that bug me, too, but that's normal stuff, mostly. We mesh really well most of the time, as in, we're really good freinds. But is it enough for me? Could I hope for more? I guess reading back what I just wrote, it seems like I am settling, and maybe its true. I do seem to have a goodly list of excuses for issues that come up with us. But, its like the job thing: I'm not truly unhappy, so its confusing as to what to do. I suppose patience is ok for now, in this venue. She just might turn around and dump me, and make the desicion all the more easier :P
On that note, I have an interview on friday with a company that does somewhat interesting work. I'd be doing R&D into new boiler and water heater designs. I have to see what they have to offer, though. I can afford to be a little picky, for a change. On another front, I've been in a relationship for the past 9 months. We almost broke up last week. The main issue was something that has been a downfall in previous relationships for me. But the more I analyze the situation (which isn't always a good thing) the more I am seeing that it might not be me this time. I seem to be the one she takes it out on if she is stressing about something. I can understand that, but I'm questioning weather I am willing to put up with it. And there's other bits and pieces that bug me, too, but that's normal stuff, mostly. We mesh really well most of the time, as in, we're really good freinds. But is it enough for me? Could I hope for more? I guess reading back what I just wrote, it seems like I am settling, and maybe its true. I do seem to have a goodly list of excuses for issues that come up with us. But, its like the job thing: I'm not truly unhappy, so its confusing as to what to do. I suppose patience is ok for now, in this venue. She just might turn around and dump me, and make the desicion all the more easier :P