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The strange thoughts that have been drifting through my mind lately, occupying both the conscious and unconscious halves of my poor twisted brain, have finally started to congeal into something substantial. At the very least, whereas I once knew what I wanted but not who I was; I now know who I am, just not what I want. Connundrum of my life I suppose...for the most part. Sometimes I wish I could be sure, but that would compromise so much, which I don't think I am ready for right now; later, perhaps, but the moment is too full of turmoil, change.
I have this epiphany, if it can be named such, that for once in my life I finally have the capacity to reign in all portions of my life and let them meld; yet ironically, the mood swings ranging from deep depression to intense joy, excitement, and love bounce back and forth by the hour. Odd. But I'm quitting my job. I don't know why, but it suddenly feels right, when it didn't before. I just hope for I don't know what; in short, I just hope.
I have this epiphany, if it can be named such, that for once in my life I finally have the capacity to reign in all portions of my life and let them meld; yet ironically, the mood swings ranging from deep depression to intense joy, excitement, and love bounce back and forth by the hour. Odd. But I'm quitting my job. I don't know why, but it suddenly feels right, when it didn't before. I just hope for I don't know what; in short, I just hope.