Hello everyone
Yes, if you're reading this it means that I actually have written in my livejournal for just about the first time in 2 months. Much has happened though really only two things stand out in my mind. One being the church retreat I went on and the other being Lauren. Both of which I will go into detail.
This past Friday-Saturday I went on my fifth church retreat, fourth in the past two years, and fourth as a facilitator. I have to say that this one was the best. Just the conversations that we had with Father John were amazing. This one kid had so much to ask and talk about and he actually knew what he was talking about, which was suprprising. I became closer to a lot of people and now am much closer with a few people. Specifically, those people would be Tom S, Travis, and Jimi. I loved the whole retreat and sadly, it may have been my last one. Going off to college next year (and yes, I did pick U of M), I just don't know if I'll be able to make it. Though I sure do hope I'll be able to.
Moving on to Lauren...what can I say about her? There's so much that I could just say and well I'll just write about whatever happens to come into my head first. As you all may or may not know, Lauren is my ex-girlfriend and well, let's just say that in my opinion, I wasn't the best boyfriend when we went out. I realized that way to late, honesly I think the day we broke up and I've never stopped caring for her. I love her now so much more than I did before and I will do anything to be with her. She doesn't see any future between us and that kill's me. I just want to be with her. Nothing else in the world would make me happier right now. Lauren I know I screwed up before but I am a changed man, just like I told you. I'm completely different from before, and you know that I would do anything for you. Yes, I could just go on and meet another girl and push all this aside but I don't want to. You're all that I've been thinking of the last few days. There's nothing else on my mind other than church and God. All I want to be able to do is to be able to say that you're mine. To say that yep, that's my girlfriend right there, and I'm the luckiest guy in the world to have her. But unfortunately, I don't and probably have that. I won't give up Lauren. I love you and I don't want to lose you. You mean the world to me and I hate myself for realizing that so late. I'M SORRY. So, if you're reading this Lauren, I want you to know that I love you. Yeah, I may be only 17 and I don't know what love feels like yet, but if I had to give a definition for love, my feeling right now is how I would describe it. I LOVE YOU and hope you reconsider and give me one more chance...
Well, it's time for school now though I don't know what good it'll do me. I won't be able to concentrate on anything today, my mind will be on only one person...
This past Friday-Saturday I went on my fifth church retreat, fourth in the past two years, and fourth as a facilitator. I have to say that this one was the best. Just the conversations that we had with Father John were amazing. This one kid had so much to ask and talk about and he actually knew what he was talking about, which was suprprising. I became closer to a lot of people and now am much closer with a few people. Specifically, those people would be Tom S, Travis, and Jimi. I loved the whole retreat and sadly, it may have been my last one. Going off to college next year (and yes, I did pick U of M), I just don't know if I'll be able to make it. Though I sure do hope I'll be able to.
Moving on to Lauren...what can I say about her? There's so much that I could just say and well I'll just write about whatever happens to come into my head first. As you all may or may not know, Lauren is my ex-girlfriend and well, let's just say that in my opinion, I wasn't the best boyfriend when we went out. I realized that way to late, honesly I think the day we broke up and I've never stopped caring for her. I love her now so much more than I did before and I will do anything to be with her. She doesn't see any future between us and that kill's me. I just want to be with her. Nothing else in the world would make me happier right now. Lauren I know I screwed up before but I am a changed man, just like I told you. I'm completely different from before, and you know that I would do anything for you. Yes, I could just go on and meet another girl and push all this aside but I don't want to. You're all that I've been thinking of the last few days. There's nothing else on my mind other than church and God. All I want to be able to do is to be able to say that you're mine. To say that yep, that's my girlfriend right there, and I'm the luckiest guy in the world to have her. But unfortunately, I don't and probably have that. I won't give up Lauren. I love you and I don't want to lose you. You mean the world to me and I hate myself for realizing that so late. I'M SORRY. So, if you're reading this Lauren, I want you to know that I love you. Yeah, I may be only 17 and I don't know what love feels like yet, but if I had to give a definition for love, my feeling right now is how I would describe it. I LOVE YOU and hope you reconsider and give me one more chance...
Well, it's time for school now though I don't know what good it'll do me. I won't be able to concentrate on anything today, my mind will be on only one person...