I couldn't find a song that reflected my thoughts... so I made one up.
I take a deep breath
And stifle a tear
I can't really be sure why
Somedays it feels like I am the luckiest girl in the world. And then other days the same things that make me lucky make me sad. If my reality is so prone to perception then there is no REALNESS to it.
God I am so consumed by this dark side of me. All I can think about it is my absolute ineptitude... that and the broken heart ego heart I'm nursing.
I finally came to a decision. That can be considered the silver lining or the dark cloud.
But here's the deal. I'm sick of feeling like this. I'm sick of wallowing. I'm sick of this warped universe I have been living in. I'm sick of no control. I'm sick of the games. I'm sick with guilt. And I think I just might be hurt too. It's been a while. At least the "apathy" phase is over.
SO thats it. I am letting go.
And just like that, it's over before it started...
And stifle a tear
I can't really be sure why
Somedays it feels like I am the luckiest girl in the world. And then other days the same things that make me lucky make me sad. If my reality is so prone to perception then there is no REALNESS to it.
God I am so consumed by this dark side of me. All I can think about it is my absolute ineptitude... that and the broken heart ego heart I'm nursing.
I finally came to a decision. That can be considered the silver lining or the dark cloud.
But here's the deal. I'm sick of feeling like this. I'm sick of wallowing. I'm sick of this warped universe I have been living in. I'm sick of no control. I'm sick of the games. I'm sick with guilt. And I think I just might be hurt too. It's been a while. At least the "apathy" phase is over.
SO thats it. I am letting go.
And just like that, it's over before it started...