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ha, i really do suck. I'm going to try my same plan again. I figured it out, If i try a bit harder, i wont be the shit bag. He is making it so easy for him to be it, but some how im not motivated enough to out shine him. ohh just wait until i get my shit together.
i'm going to try it all again. the problem is, i plan and plan and plan, yet i never DO anything. In my mind every idea works, but i never follow through. I always plan big then in the end take the easy route of doing nothing.
its fallen apart before, i'm not letting it get out of hand again.
I wrote a letter to myself. its sitting on my wall. Its to the new me, telling me what what i was and a good job i finished it. I look at it everyday knowing i haven't earned the right to open it yet. I just need to commit myself, and when i feel like i deserve it i'll open that letter. I don't know when that day will be.
I read a bit of my old LJ entries, ha that was a bad idea. No that i think of some of the shit i stressed over i thought to myself, what would have happened if i had said "fuck it"... i know now nothing would have happened. I want to go back and smack myself.
i'm having loads of fun here.
(side note i missed those little userpics, they made me laugh)
i'm going to try it all again. the problem is, i plan and plan and plan, yet i never DO anything. In my mind every idea works, but i never follow through. I always plan big then in the end take the easy route of doing nothing.
its fallen apart before, i'm not letting it get out of hand again.
I wrote a letter to myself. its sitting on my wall. Its to the new me, telling me what what i was and a good job i finished it. I look at it everyday knowing i haven't earned the right to open it yet. I just need to commit myself, and when i feel like i deserve it i'll open that letter. I don't know when that day will be.
I read a bit of my old LJ entries, ha that was a bad idea. No that i think of some of the shit i stressed over i thought to myself, what would have happened if i had said "fuck it"... i know now nothing would have happened. I want to go back and smack myself.
i'm having loads of fun here.
(side note i missed those little userpics, they made me laugh)