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[delson]

my last post may have been a little rash, but the evidence is still there, and it's not goin away, she says she has doe nothing and isn't with im, just that they're together all the time and he calls her all the time and yeah, it may have been a little ahead of the gun, btu i still don't know. i might have been overreacting. but who knows.

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[yinyanglibra]

ok if you don't believe me then don't like i have said there is nothing going on between me and "him" and like i have also said before i don't lie to my friends and especially to close ones (like you) if there was something going on between me and "him" tell me one good reasone why i wouldn't tell you. Hello you where the one who dumped me ok you where the one who hurt me ok.
So you still don't know about whats up well here it is there is nothing between me and "him" Nothing we are good friends and he knows how much i got hurt from you and is being a good friend and helping me out by being there for me cause you know its hard to get dumped twice by someone you realy love and have to see them everyday acting as though nothing has happened. And also being treated like you don't even like me anymore then just wanting when your drunk you know once again i feel used and stuff.

Oh by the way where did you here this whole thing from i would like to know who the fuck is spreading these rumors and stuff so i can talk to them and tell them the truth ok.

Oh an also you keeping one of your entries secret is fine but having the second entry not secret is well stupid cause it has just pissed me off. I thought you where a friend i just slept with you wow do i feel used right now.so fuck you.
if yu want to talk feel free

sorry

[delson]

for whhat it's worth, i have changed my mind and do believe you. it was just hard, and you even said yourself that you could see what i was seeing, and to think you've been replaced after only two days is kinds hurtful, kinda like hell, so i was overreacting, as i said. and if i used you, which i didn't, you used me for the same thing, you used me to feel close to someone again, to hold someone close to you and to be held close. we both needed it and you know it, i do still love you and i know you still love me, and we both just needed to feel it again. if there was any using we used eachother. i don't know about you, but it felt so so so so so good to fall asleep holding you, and i know you felt the same, i know you loved having me there holding you. granted, we did sleep together, we got close and just did what felt natural.
i am sorry if you gopt hurt, by anything other than the break up. i was not trying to, but i did feel worthless and hurt. my mind told me things that weren't true and i just ran with it. you said yourself you could see where i was coming from.
oh, and one reason why you wouldn't tell me, one we had just broken up, two he's one of my friends, and three, you didn't want to hurt me/piss me off. that would have been three good reasons not to tell me, but as i said, i do believe you now, and i am sorry for being an idiot and not trusting you more, you've never ngiven me any reason not to trust you, so it was just idiocy on my part. i feel like an ass, more than usual, and i am sorry.
i hope you can forgive me and we can just be good friends someday, i really still kinda like you and enjoy hanging out with you, i really hope i don't lose any of that.

sex and chocolate,
delson j.