Craziness
So things have changed a lot over a year. Relationships have changed, people who I havent talked to in a long time suddenly came back into my life, as well as health getting a lot better. I got tested for Sleep Apnea and lo and behold I have super bad apnea which very likely has been the major cause of my chronic fatigue.
I'm working full-time in customer service and want to shoot myself half the time dealing with idiots. However I am of course the productive girl and do way more work than is necessary. However, good thing about this job is that while it pays crap it will pay for me to go back to school if I so desire and it pays my car payments and rent.
Speaking of car, my old one finally died on my in a firey ball of death. Well more like I got into a car accident and while the body and car still ran, eventually the heater coil just decided to poison me slowly by sending all the fumes into the cab of the car. Let me tell you, in the middle of the winter with fumes inside the cab, ALL windows down in subzero weather, no heat, and me driving with a scraper in hand as I scrape the INSIDE of my car nearly drove me nuts. As it happened when I spent a grand on fixing it, 3 months later it started the same thing I decided it was time to let this car go in peace....and fumes of death. I now have a much newer car that I hope will last me a good long time.
School....yeah. Well I plan on taking summer courses and now that I'm not falling asleep ever 5 minutes and can actually concentrate I'm thinking I'll be doing well again. Will I go back to UMASS instead of just buggering off to San Fran and do my chiropractic college...I'm not sure. Part of me says get your BA and then go out. The other part of me says fuck it all, just do the classes you need and go get trained in a job that pays damn well and will take care of your money freakouts for the rest of your life. Then again, I'm me so freak outs will never fully go away.
Relationships. Family has been crazy, things with my father are still strained, and my grandmother is constantly trying to guilt trip me into talking to him, as is my step-sister. Boys/girls well...no relationship *big shocker I know* but I'm actually feeling the lonliness this time. It's hard when a good amount of your friends are married with kids, or are in good relationships, and I'm out alone. Thankfully I have Su, Sixy, and Brock if only platonically. Although Shark would have me given to a good owner if he could *rolls eyes*.
Keiko, my dear wonderful cat, my companion and friend for over 13 years is gone. I loved that cat, she was my little baby girl. She chose me and although tolerated other humans I was her one and only owner. My dear kitty who slept standing up with her face down, with her squished in face, with her bright eyes, is at least not in pain. I miss her terribly and cry about it. My younger cat misses Keiko terribly and although tries to be her cheerful self just doesnt really have the heart.
Life continues and changes, only time will tell what the future holds. Till then may things flow towards positive charges.
-Sam
I'm working full-time in customer service and want to shoot myself half the time dealing with idiots. However I am of course the productive girl and do way more work than is necessary. However, good thing about this job is that while it pays crap it will pay for me to go back to school if I so desire and it pays my car payments and rent.
Speaking of car, my old one finally died on my in a firey ball of death. Well more like I got into a car accident and while the body and car still ran, eventually the heater coil just decided to poison me slowly by sending all the fumes into the cab of the car. Let me tell you, in the middle of the winter with fumes inside the cab, ALL windows down in subzero weather, no heat, and me driving with a scraper in hand as I scrape the INSIDE of my car nearly drove me nuts. As it happened when I spent a grand on fixing it, 3 months later it started the same thing I decided it was time to let this car go in peace....and fumes of death. I now have a much newer car that I hope will last me a good long time.
School....yeah. Well I plan on taking summer courses and now that I'm not falling asleep ever 5 minutes and can actually concentrate I'm thinking I'll be doing well again. Will I go back to UMASS instead of just buggering off to San Fran and do my chiropractic college...I'm not sure. Part of me says get your BA and then go out. The other part of me says fuck it all, just do the classes you need and go get trained in a job that pays damn well and will take care of your money freakouts for the rest of your life. Then again, I'm me so freak outs will never fully go away.
Relationships. Family has been crazy, things with my father are still strained, and my grandmother is constantly trying to guilt trip me into talking to him, as is my step-sister. Boys/girls well...no relationship *big shocker I know* but I'm actually feeling the lonliness this time. It's hard when a good amount of your friends are married with kids, or are in good relationships, and I'm out alone. Thankfully I have Su, Sixy, and Brock if only platonically. Although Shark would have me given to a good owner if he could *rolls eyes*.
Keiko, my dear wonderful cat, my companion and friend for over 13 years is gone. I loved that cat, she was my little baby girl. She chose me and although tolerated other humans I was her one and only owner. My dear kitty who slept standing up with her face down, with her squished in face, with her bright eyes, is at least not in pain. I miss her terribly and cry about it. My younger cat misses Keiko terribly and although tries to be her cheerful self just doesnt really have the heart.
Life continues and changes, only time will tell what the future holds. Till then may things flow towards positive charges.
-Sam