what's kickin'.
I don't frequently write here anymore, usually because I have nothing worth writing and I imagine people get sick of seeing posts about upcoming shows that they may or may not be interested in.
So here I am, writing. Over the summer I met a woman through a collective birthday party put together by the theatre group at LCC. Though she is wonderful, the important part is what happened to me through this meeting. I've begun to change the way my mind works, intentionally and purposefully. I came to a realization a few nights ago in conversation. Though I thought, and my mind functioned. Until three and a half months ago, I was not aware of myself or as importantly, my environment. I have begun a process to reconstruct the person I am (mentally) in order to be able to become the person I would like to be. In this process my perception is changing of the people around me and how we connect and effect each other. Several conclusions have come from this. One is that my family, as much as I do care about them and love them, is not healthy. I am therefor making plans to move out and get my own place. Work has become a high priority, and self sufficiency has become a new focus, instead of something that was plainly useful but unneeded. I do not know how this process will change me, though I have some ideas. I do not know where this process will take me, though I know it does not end. I've found the difference between living and actually having a life. And I am anxious also, to get my ears around the new Floater CD. time to call William.
So here I am, writing. Over the summer I met a woman through a collective birthday party put together by the theatre group at LCC. Though she is wonderful, the important part is what happened to me through this meeting. I've begun to change the way my mind works, intentionally and purposefully. I came to a realization a few nights ago in conversation. Though I thought, and my mind functioned. Until three and a half months ago, I was not aware of myself or as importantly, my environment. I have begun a process to reconstruct the person I am (mentally) in order to be able to become the person I would like to be. In this process my perception is changing of the people around me and how we connect and effect each other. Several conclusions have come from this. One is that my family, as much as I do care about them and love them, is not healthy. I am therefor making plans to move out and get my own place. Work has become a high priority, and self sufficiency has become a new focus, instead of something that was plainly useful but unneeded. I do not know how this process will change me, though I have some ideas. I do not know where this process will take me, though I know it does not end. I've found the difference between living and actually having a life. And I am anxious also, to get my ears around the new Floater CD. time to call William.