Let Go, Taemin/Sulli
Title: Let Go
Genre: Angst
Rating: pg
Pairing/Focus: Taemin/Sulli
Summary: Sulli isn't good with goodbyes, Taemin's there to help.
"Fuck him for leaving." She whispered.
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They were in a coffee shop near her dorm. It was way past their bed time but they could care less. Night is the only time they can meet and catching up with others' life. Sanity time, as she like to call it that way.
Taemin was lost for words. But it's not like he's going to need one either. He watched her as she gritted her teeth and tapped her manicured fingers on the table.
"Why is he so fucking old? Why he's going to enroll so fucking fast? I need him, for god's sake!"Sulli said hoarsely. "He is my brother. Heechul oppa is my brother." she continued, her tone softened at Heechul's name.
"I know he'll return in 2 years and we can still text each other, but 2 years is not short amount of time. I miss him already." she conceded,looking at Taemin. The said one looked back, and he was quite taken aback of how her eyes were.They were so guarded and hard, fooled everyone that she was okay, everyone but him-he saw despair and loneliness.
"Blame me for being so effin egoistic and selfish, but i don't want him to go. It won't be the same without him." she muttered after a while. To be perfectly honest, Taemin thought she looked like a lost child.
"But this isn't about me, right? It's about him and this is his decision and I should accept it.... But i always hope he didn't take it too fast.Such a wishful thinking." Sulli quipped.
Sometimes he hate it when she always try to swallow her sadness and fears,just because she doesn't want her weak side to be revealed.
"Look," he said, "You don't have to pretend you are okay. Because you're not and i know that." She stared at him for a while.
"So what if i'm not okay, oppa? He's leaving in matter of weeks, and I.. I don't know what to do. He is my best friend in any way possible. He is my older brother. I still have my family, f(x), Jiyoung and you- but that's different."
"Well I care about you! Besides, he's not leaving for real. He's going to come back, and everything will be fine. You will be." he assured.
"Yeah... he will be back... and i'll wait for him." she stated,more like convincing herself. Taemin gave her a faint smile and reached for her left hand,squeezed it for seconds as if he was giving his support and released his grip.
Silence stroke. He took a sip of his already cold latte while she gazed down at her coffee.
" Thanks, oppa." she finally managed to say after a long silence. It was slightly inaudible but he catch them anyway. "You're always here when i need someone to talk." she spoke again, this time with chokes and voice croaked, tears formed in her cheeks.
Her sudden cry made him panicked and asked her if she is okay, if his words hurts."Oh god, i'm such a cry baby," she sniffed,"And no, I'm just so thankful for your presence." she mumbled, tears still running down.
But for the first time in that night, she smiled.
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it's been ages since i last wrote here. sorry :| school, that is. been busy with new school, new friends, events, you name it.
Genre: Angst
Rating: pg
Pairing/Focus: Taemin/Sulli
Summary: Sulli isn't good with goodbyes, Taemin's there to help.
"Fuck him for leaving." She whispered.
-------------------------------------------
They were in a coffee shop near her dorm. It was way past their bed time but they could care less. Night is the only time they can meet and catching up with others' life. Sanity time, as she like to call it that way.
Taemin was lost for words. But it's not like he's going to need one either. He watched her as she gritted her teeth and tapped her manicured fingers on the table.
"Why is he so fucking old? Why he's going to enroll so fucking fast? I need him, for god's sake!"Sulli said hoarsely. "He is my brother. Heechul oppa is my brother." she continued, her tone softened at Heechul's name.
"I know he'll return in 2 years and we can still text each other, but 2 years is not short amount of time. I miss him already." she conceded,looking at Taemin. The said one looked back, and he was quite taken aback of how her eyes were.They were so guarded and hard, fooled everyone that she was okay, everyone but him-he saw despair and loneliness.
"Blame me for being so effin egoistic and selfish, but i don't want him to go. It won't be the same without him." she muttered after a while. To be perfectly honest, Taemin thought she looked like a lost child.
"But this isn't about me, right? It's about him and this is his decision and I should accept it.... But i always hope he didn't take it too fast.Such a wishful thinking." Sulli quipped.
Sometimes he hate it when she always try to swallow her sadness and fears,just because she doesn't want her weak side to be revealed.
"Look," he said, "You don't have to pretend you are okay. Because you're not and i know that." She stared at him for a while.
"So what if i'm not okay, oppa? He's leaving in matter of weeks, and I.. I don't know what to do. He is my best friend in any way possible. He is my older brother. I still have my family, f(x), Jiyoung and you- but that's different."
"Well I care about you! Besides, he's not leaving for real. He's going to come back, and everything will be fine. You will be." he assured.
"Yeah... he will be back... and i'll wait for him." she stated,more like convincing herself. Taemin gave her a faint smile and reached for her left hand,squeezed it for seconds as if he was giving his support and released his grip.
Silence stroke. He took a sip of his already cold latte while she gazed down at her coffee.
" Thanks, oppa." she finally managed to say after a long silence. It was slightly inaudible but he catch them anyway. "You're always here when i need someone to talk." she spoke again, this time with chokes and voice croaked, tears formed in her cheeks.
Her sudden cry made him panicked and asked her if she is okay, if his words hurts."Oh god, i'm such a cry baby," she sniffed,"And no, I'm just so thankful for your presence." she mumbled, tears still running down.
But for the first time in that night, she smiled.
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it's been ages since i last wrote here. sorry :| school, that is. been busy with new school, new friends, events, you name it.