1st Anniversary
Alarm went off at 8:30am. Got in the shower then called my sister. Picked her and my niece up and went to church. My whole family was there, minus my oldest nephew. *shrugs* Sitting there in that pew all these memories of my childhood came flooding back. I saw the pew were I almost passed out in, *lol* it was my comfirmation and my brother-in-law was my sponsor. We were all standing and I noticed 1 of the priests come down from the alter, take my hand and escorted me out of the church. He told my mother he saw me swaying and that I was very pale. *lol* Weird how the sight and smells do such a thing. Yes it's Easter Sunday, not the reason why we all went to church. Today, at exactly 3pm (give or take) my brother 1 year ago passed away at the age of 39. He always told me he would never live to the age of 40, well he was right. It went by so fast, I still can't believe he's gone. I spoke with my nephews (his boys of 16 and 10) I haven't seen them since xmas. The oldest my godson is playing floor hockey and loving it. He is as tall as I am, but thin as a rack, definately NOT from my side of the family. *lol* I want to go to his gravesite, but I know I will breakdown and cry. I wanna go alone.. but I don't. I do know that he is in a better place, with no monkeys on his back....... finally free.