Nov 14, 2005 11:40
I`ve never found it more hard to say good bye than I did that night.
I think it`s because I knew that it meant that this would be our last unspoken goodbye.
And when your name would come to pass. All I can do now is smile and reminisce.
All I can say was that he ws a good guy. That I did know him.. That my time was not wasted knowing him.
Who ever wants to tell some one that you wasted your time knowing some one?
[I can smell the rain coming]
Kayte and I shared the majority of a bottle of raspberry vodka. Sat on her bed and took it shot for shot. My first shot, my last 2 shots: straight -- no chaser. I believe I totalled a number of 8-9 shots before we toured back to my place.
Richie came that night. He came to visit me. It was a loverly sight. A bottle of raspberry vodka and a hansome man and a good friend beside me. what more could I ask for?
[But I won't leave until it falls]
I have not drank like that in a good long time -- since the summer atleast... So I was pretty drunk. I remember leaning against Richie (I`ve liked him since I met him) and then I blinked... only to feel the touch of soft lips caressing mine -- he had kissed me ... and it was nice. It was just what I had needed the whole night.
By the time the delirium left it was 9:30 pm - still early.
Richie had since gone at 10 and so had the rest of the group, so being the egotistic maniacal creature that I am, I turned myself over to the internet for a while. Shortly after I was on, Jacob caught me, I thought my night was to get better.
[I'm gonna soak in its downpour]
To my dismay the night fell down hill...
I cried about the problems he told me of. Of course I was drunk, anything upsetting made me cry.
Come to find out two days later, that he as well, was drunk.
So we are just the loverliest drunken neutrotic pair.
[Til I hear my mother's calls]
Ciao
Rachel
jacob,
wtf