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im tired of living this one day at a time.
they only way i can get away from everything is to drown myself in music.
and i mean drown.
i dont even know what the hell else is going on anymore.
i just dont want to be like this anymore.
all of my music makes me sad, even if it's happy music.
everything i do makes me feel like shit.
i draw about 15 pictures a day now.
all of them are either sad or confusing.
nothing makes sense
nothing
why doesnt this work?
i want things to be good again but i cant do anything to help that.
i dont want to spend my last xmas at home like this.
its not even fucking "winter"
all this bullshit sunshine makes me want to go to sleep forever. im fucking tired of "happiness" and "enjoying the beautiful weather"
for fucks sake can we get some gloomy snow days already
sheeesh
what is my problem
somebody help me before i go fucking insane.
they only way i can get away from everything is to drown myself in music.
and i mean drown.
i dont even know what the hell else is going on anymore.
i just dont want to be like this anymore.
all of my music makes me sad, even if it's happy music.
everything i do makes me feel like shit.
i draw about 15 pictures a day now.
all of them are either sad or confusing.
nothing makes sense
nothing
why doesnt this work?
i want things to be good again but i cant do anything to help that.
i dont want to spend my last xmas at home like this.
its not even fucking "winter"
all this bullshit sunshine makes me want to go to sleep forever. im fucking tired of "happiness" and "enjoying the beautiful weather"
for fucks sake can we get some gloomy snow days already
sheeesh
what is my problem
somebody help me before i go fucking insane.