***Constant over stimu-lation numbs me and I wouldn't have it any other way.***
Man, I just wish I knew what I should do with myself at the moment. I'm pretty fuckin confused about a lot of shit. ESPECIALLY about the feelings I've been having recently. Lately, the only thing that calms me down is just listening to my music at 500 volume, alone in the dark. I've been in a big TooL mood lately... Sean has seen them twice... bastard.. hehe. I'm just jealous.
How am I ever going to figure this out?
Sometimes, I just want to run outside and scream as loud as I can. I wish I didn't lack the balls that one requires to deal with such things.
On a better note, my friend Luke called me yesterday. Turns out he's living in Springfield. I wish he woulda called me a week ago. Then I could have hung out with him when we took Ric back home. I guess he's been living there for a month or so. It would be nice to go visit with him, consitering I've not seen him since I moved up to Vancouver. Hopfully I'll be able to do that soon.. if I go stay with Sean for a little minute. It would be nice to hang out in Eugene for a week or so. I've always loved it there. Maybe if I'm able to get a job while I'm down there, I can find a little studio apartment or something. It would be weird living all by myself tho. herm...
Balls.
How am I ever going to figure this out?
Sometimes, I just want to run outside and scream as loud as I can. I wish I didn't lack the balls that one requires to deal with such things.
On a better note, my friend Luke called me yesterday. Turns out he's living in Springfield. I wish he woulda called me a week ago. Then I could have hung out with him when we took Ric back home. I guess he's been living there for a month or so. It would be nice to go visit with him, consitering I've not seen him since I moved up to Vancouver. Hopfully I'll be able to do that soon.. if I go stay with Sean for a little minute. It would be nice to hang out in Eugene for a week or so. I've always loved it there. Maybe if I'm able to get a job while I'm down there, I can find a little studio apartment or something. It would be weird living all by myself tho. herm...
Balls.