***Something has to change. Undeliable dilemma. Bordem's not a burden anyone should bare***
La la la... I never write in this thing anymore... Although I know I should... it's been months.. I know keeping a journal can be theraputic, so I guess I should write more regularly. Things weren't going so well between Ryan and I... due to me being completely psycho... but I think things are getting better now. I'm trying to be more consiterate of him, and hold back if I feel myself wanting to snap at him for no reason. Although I'm starting my period this week, so hopfully I'll be able to keep myself in check! lol We had a really bad fight not that long ago, and it really scared me. I don't want to lose him, so I guess I better get my ass in gear and do something with myself. He's the sweetest guy I've ever known, and I don't want him to walk out of my life just because I have a few issues I don't know how to deal with.
I started going to school for my GED a few weeks ago. I really like my new friends I've made, and my teachers are great. It gives me something to do a few times a week, and I get out of the house, so I'm thankful. I'm learning really quickly, it seems. That makes me feel better about myself, since math has never been my strong suit.
Mary came to visit not that long ago.. it was really great to see her. We had a little get together with her, Mike, Chrissy, Andy, Brian, Ryan, and myself.. it was nice and stoned :) hehe Then we went over to Robbie's house, whom I've not seen since I left school. It was like a little class reunion or something. Good times. I didn't even know he lived so close to me. We'll have to hang out more in the future.
I'm thinking that I might go home for a few days next week. I miss my family and I want to meet a friend of Mary's that's coming over all the way from Texas. I just hope she doesn't end up doing anything stupid while he's here... they dated before, abd broke up for a reason. Because he's controlling and treats her like ass. I told her that I think she should assess the situation and be careful. Talk is cheap and he needs to SHOW you that he's changed *if he has*
I'm pissed though, because my parents are now redoing my room, since I moved out, for my stupid little brother... He's so spoiled, amd my mom wonders why. Because he's gets everything he wants! He has no respect for her at all. It's such bullshit, I can't even believe it!! They never even consitered fixing all the shit wrong with it when I lived there, but when I move out, BAM, it gets fixed up for that little ass. Whatever.
My friend Chelsea is coming up here on the 28th and 29th of this month. Brian is really excited since he's been in love with her forever. I think we'll have good times though. I haven't seen her in forever, so it will be nice. I know she's staying with her bitch ass brother, Micheal for a while, but I'm going to give her my number and let her know she can come hang out with us if she gets tired of his lies and bullshit.. which I'm sure she will. I don't see how she can stand to even be around him. I'd be beating the shit out of him, if I had the chance. grrrr....
Nothing else really going on... I'll try to write again soon.
After the rain,
*Melyssa*
I started going to school for my GED a few weeks ago. I really like my new friends I've made, and my teachers are great. It gives me something to do a few times a week, and I get out of the house, so I'm thankful. I'm learning really quickly, it seems. That makes me feel better about myself, since math has never been my strong suit.
Mary came to visit not that long ago.. it was really great to see her. We had a little get together with her, Mike, Chrissy, Andy, Brian, Ryan, and myself.. it was nice and stoned :) hehe Then we went over to Robbie's house, whom I've not seen since I left school. It was like a little class reunion or something. Good times. I didn't even know he lived so close to me. We'll have to hang out more in the future.
I'm thinking that I might go home for a few days next week. I miss my family and I want to meet a friend of Mary's that's coming over all the way from Texas. I just hope she doesn't end up doing anything stupid while he's here... they dated before, abd broke up for a reason. Because he's controlling and treats her like ass. I told her that I think she should assess the situation and be careful. Talk is cheap and he needs to SHOW you that he's changed *if he has*
I'm pissed though, because my parents are now redoing my room, since I moved out, for my stupid little brother... He's so spoiled, amd my mom wonders why. Because he's gets everything he wants! He has no respect for her at all. It's such bullshit, I can't even believe it!! They never even consitered fixing all the shit wrong with it when I lived there, but when I move out, BAM, it gets fixed up for that little ass. Whatever.
My friend Chelsea is coming up here on the 28th and 29th of this month. Brian is really excited since he's been in love with her forever. I think we'll have good times though. I haven't seen her in forever, so it will be nice. I know she's staying with her bitch ass brother, Micheal for a while, but I'm going to give her my number and let her know she can come hang out with us if she gets tired of his lies and bullshit.. which I'm sure she will. I don't see how she can stand to even be around him. I'd be beating the shit out of him, if I had the chance. grrrr....
Nothing else really going on... I'll try to write again soon.
After the rain,
*Melyssa*