On which I write after a long absence.
So, here I am again. I kept forgetting I had a journal, and meant to get back into the flow of writing, but at the same time kept putting it off. I tend to enthusiastically begin things... only to run out of steam in the middle. Or even at the very beginning. I heard somewhere that people who don't finish what they started are just... average people (gente del montón). And I used to care about that, but I don't care much anymore...
I was just going back through past entries and I realized how much I've changed (for the better? I'd like to think so), how much things have changed. I used to make so many plans for the future, so many lists of things I wanted to do. And guess what? I've actually accomplished a lot of those things.
I still can't believe I now have my own freelance practice. I used to dream about it, and now I'm living my life the way I wanted. :) I used to complain A LOT about my job, and yeah, I still whine, 'cause I'm a whiner, it's like a hobby with me, but... I'm actually happier than I've felt in a long time. Granted, I have my moods. And this week was a funky one. But still, I worked damn hard to get where I am. Worked my butt off! (well, not actually *off*, 'cause it's still there, big as it is.) As a result, I've been insanely busy, busy as hell for the past month and a half. I don't mind much, because it means building a nest for the months to come.
On the other hand, there's still a little hole, a tiny space right there that I don't know how to fill. It will probably be always empty. And it burns, some times more than others... Oh how it burns.
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Ok, I realize I'm rambling and this entry is going nowhere fast. I know I had something to say (or did I?), but I've forgotten what it was. I'm not in the mood for writing anymore. *sigh* Maybe tomorrow, yes?
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Where was I?
Oh yes.
Good night.
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Soundtrack to a random entry
Louis XIV - The Ghost of Chapel Royal
Gogol Bordello - Shy Kind of Guy
Jane's Addiction - Jane Says
Tool - Schism
Hawksley Workman - Stop Joking Around
This soul has not yet been taken
Could I request it back at once gratefully?
I was just going back through past entries and I realized how much I've changed (for the better? I'd like to think so), how much things have changed. I used to make so many plans for the future, so many lists of things I wanted to do. And guess what? I've actually accomplished a lot of those things.
I still can't believe I now have my own freelance practice. I used to dream about it, and now I'm living my life the way I wanted. :) I used to complain A LOT about my job, and yeah, I still whine, 'cause I'm a whiner, it's like a hobby with me, but... I'm actually happier than I've felt in a long time. Granted, I have my moods. And this week was a funky one. But still, I worked damn hard to get where I am. Worked my butt off! (well, not actually *off*, 'cause it's still there, big as it is.) As a result, I've been insanely busy, busy as hell for the past month and a half. I don't mind much, because it means building a nest for the months to come.
On the other hand, there's still a little hole, a tiny space right there that I don't know how to fill. It will probably be always empty. And it burns, some times more than others... Oh how it burns.
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Ok, I realize I'm rambling and this entry is going nowhere fast. I know I had something to say (or did I?), but I've forgotten what it was. I'm not in the mood for writing anymore. *sigh* Maybe tomorrow, yes?
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Where was I?
Oh yes.
Good night.
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Soundtrack to a random entry
Louis XIV - The Ghost of Chapel Royal
Gogol Bordello - Shy Kind of Guy
Jane's Addiction - Jane Says
Tool - Schism
Hawksley Workman - Stop Joking Around
This soul has not yet been taken
Could I request it back at once gratefully?