so i guess this is growing up?
John and I are arguing again. It seems this has become the weekly thing. I just want things to move and I feel like they are just sitting. I know its my fault, I want more, and more just isn't possible. I want our weekends to be a full week, I want to see the kids more than once a week. I want to sleep next to him every night. I want to hug and be hugged after a hard day at work. I want to be a family of sorts. I just dont think he understands, when were not together, he is with his parents and children. He is part of a family. When he leaves me on weds mornings I'm on my own.
edit:you know what it doesnt even matter. i want what i want and well its not anything that can happen, and im not gonna mess this whole thing up. sometimes the means justify the ends right? so im not exactly happy now. I just gotta keep my mouth shut and let things go. It's not like things will be stuck forever. and we they do finally move im sure it will be better than i can even imagine.
edit:you know what it doesnt even matter. i want what i want and well its not anything that can happen, and im not gonna mess this whole thing up. sometimes the means justify the ends right? so im not exactly happy now. I just gotta keep my mouth shut and let things go. It's not like things will be stuck forever. and we they do finally move im sure it will be better than i can even imagine.