So Cold

[delirious_kris]

Wise men wonder while strong men die

I've never been good at making friends.
I don't know why...
I don't know if I'm too introverted...too reserved...too weird...I don't know.

I can be friendly with people, but for some reason, I can't form a strong bond with people and keep it.
Sure I've had good friends, but they never last.

I always end up feeling like the 3rd, or 5th wheel.
I usually only get invited to things as an afterthought, not because the person genuinely wants me there.
I thought maybe moving to Oklahoma and starting over would help me get out of the funk...but it hasn't.

I don't understand what I'm doing wrong.

At work, I feel like I can't make those friendships with people because I'm not a smoker, so I don't sit in the smoking break room and chat with people.
At school, I feel like everyone sees me at the smart girl still, and I take things too seriously, so therefore must not be any fun.

I have my husband and my cat, but it's still a lonely life.
I don't know how to break the cycle, but I'm sick of it.

Show me how it ends it's alright
Show me how defenseless you really are
satisfied and empty inside
Well, that's alright, let's give this another try