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So things have been very up and down lately... well, mostly this weekend. Brian asked me to move out.... it sucks a lot, I won't pretend that it doesn't... but we're still together, and I don't have to move out right now. I wish things hadn't progressed this far, but I know that we did move in before we were ready and that's taken a toll on our relationship. I just don't know where I'm going to go until I can sign a lease with one of my friends at the end of the semester.... Brian says that I don't have to worry about that now, but I don't know how I can not worry about it. I don't have the money to live anywhere else, that's why we moved in together. I'm really worried, but I'm trying not to let it affect my normal existence. The important thing is that we're still together, we still love each other, and we still want this to work. Hopefully this will make things between us better.
The up thing is... I am now Vice President of my sorority! Woo! The girl who was Vice President is taking a leave of absence, so we needed a new one, and I ran and won! Which I totally needed this weekend, because I swear it was the only thing that kept me from just dissolving into a pile of tears... which I did an awful lot, but still. It was the one good thing this weekend.
Well... I should probably go eat. I haven't been eating lately, because when I'm upset I can't eat, but now I'm way downward spiraling with that... it's amazing what three days of not eating will do to a person who may not have had the full-fledged eating disorder, but was totally on the way there... I hope I can catch this before I do some serious damage to my mentality! So now to go eat!
The up thing is... I am now Vice President of my sorority! Woo! The girl who was Vice President is taking a leave of absence, so we needed a new one, and I ran and won! Which I totally needed this weekend, because I swear it was the only thing that kept me from just dissolving into a pile of tears... which I did an awful lot, but still. It was the one good thing this weekend.
Well... I should probably go eat. I haven't been eating lately, because when I'm upset I can't eat, but now I'm way downward spiraling with that... it's amazing what three days of not eating will do to a person who may not have had the full-fledged eating disorder, but was totally on the way there... I hope I can catch this before I do some serious damage to my mentality! So now to go eat!