thoughts
So in 2 months the lease is up, and i dont feel like living in this building anymore. The original plan was that bob and i were going to rent a house together. But, now it seems he doesnt want to let go of his buds and move in with me. He wants to have all of us in one house. I dont want to have any roommate aside from my bf. I have been trying to find a place not too far away, with slightly more space so that maybe family or friends can come visit. But, not much is available right now within my financial means. The real thoughts begin when I start to think about living far from each other. it wasnt easy when we lived in different towns. now we live in the same building, and i thought the logical step was to move in together. I fear that by living far away again, instead of growing closer we are going to grow farther apart. I just foresee become a weekend gf, and then just falling off his radar. he is horrible managing his time now, and even living in the same building, two/three or even four days will pass and i wont see him. imagine when he has to make the effort to drive over and visit me? gone will be the days of sleeping over because with his new job he wont have days off during the week, he will have a normal schedule. I dunno, I guess I will just prepare myself by guarding my heart (emotions) from the heartache to come. ugh, I dont think 2008 will be good to me.