It's been quite a while hasn't it?
Hi yall!
It's been a while since I last wrote on livejournal. I dunno why exactly I've stopped writing on here. I figure part of it is that life got in the way, and that I just try to not take the time anymore to sort of my feelings. Unfortunately tho, I'm probably going to spill my guts on this thing today, so be prepared for the worst! XD
So Yesterday I went to my old highschool to meet up with a few friends to go to a party. A good number of them were seniors, but they are pretty much the last of the kids I used to know at West, so it's all good. We all went over to libby's house, watched justin play video games for a while, and then megan, claire, and I took it upon ourselves to torment Justin, Nick, and Will. XD It was hilarious, all the tickling....all the rough housing (they called it rape, but meh watever).
I never have much opportunity to actually hug/touch people my school, so it's really nice to actually have physical contact with people (such as hugging/tickling/etc). XD I had so much fun, I seriously wished it would last for ever----it was THAT fun. Of course all good days come to an end...and...well...yeah they ended.
Anyway, Today just isn't as cheery as yesterday, not that I expected it to be---but I would at least hope that it would be semi interesting! Maybe I'm just a bit depressed..I dunno. School is blah when you dont see many of your friends around. v_v
Oh, so...about the guy I like. Dunno now when I should tell him. I've planned before on telling him the ____th of april, but now since I've talked to a few other people have kinda prolonged it. *sigh* I dont get whats up with how silly it is for a girl to tell a guy she likes him. I'd rather get it over with, get rejected, and go back to mah not so happy college life. It's not like it's gonna matter anyway. I've been rejected before.
The truth is I dont want to get rejected, but I see it coming anyway (yes I'm pestimistic). I want to be optimistic about the whole thing, but I just cant. I can barely let myself even think about it, because I dont want it to bother me so much (thats why I want to get the confession thing over with). To be honest, I have more of an idea what to do when I'm rejected, than if he reciprocates my feelings. Oh btw, my idea of "confessing" is just telling him I like him more than a friend---I'm not technically asking him out. I'm just saying I like him and wouldn't mind dating him. Meh
I'll just listen to sad music now and draw purty pictures.
It's been a while since I last wrote on livejournal. I dunno why exactly I've stopped writing on here. I figure part of it is that life got in the way, and that I just try to not take the time anymore to sort of my feelings. Unfortunately tho, I'm probably going to spill my guts on this thing today, so be prepared for the worst! XD
So Yesterday I went to my old highschool to meet up with a few friends to go to a party. A good number of them were seniors, but they are pretty much the last of the kids I used to know at West, so it's all good. We all went over to libby's house, watched justin play video games for a while, and then megan, claire, and I took it upon ourselves to torment Justin, Nick, and Will. XD It was hilarious, all the tickling....all the rough housing (they called it rape, but meh watever).
I never have much opportunity to actually hug/touch people my school, so it's really nice to actually have physical contact with people (such as hugging/tickling/etc). XD I had so much fun, I seriously wished it would last for ever----it was THAT fun. Of course all good days come to an end...and...well...yeah they ended.
Anyway, Today just isn't as cheery as yesterday, not that I expected it to be---but I would at least hope that it would be semi interesting! Maybe I'm just a bit depressed..I dunno. School is blah when you dont see many of your friends around. v_v
Oh, so...about the guy I like. Dunno now when I should tell him. I've planned before on telling him the ____th of april, but now since I've talked to a few other people have kinda prolonged it. *sigh* I dont get whats up with how silly it is for a girl to tell a guy she likes him. I'd rather get it over with, get rejected, and go back to mah not so happy college life. It's not like it's gonna matter anyway. I've been rejected before.
The truth is I dont want to get rejected, but I see it coming anyway (yes I'm pestimistic). I want to be optimistic about the whole thing, but I just cant. I can barely let myself even think about it, because I dont want it to bother me so much (thats why I want to get the confession thing over with). To be honest, I have more of an idea what to do when I'm rejected, than if he reciprocates my feelings. Oh btw, my idea of "confessing" is just telling him I like him more than a friend---I'm not technically asking him out. I'm just saying I like him and wouldn't mind dating him. Meh
I'll just listen to sad music now and draw purty pictures.