Cold, tired, miserable. Thats what defines my life.
Life has been blah. I aboslutely loath this time of year when I have lots of homework, and my energy has been so zapped that I have to sleep 10 hours a night just to function anymore. Actually I would sleep more if my mother would let me, but I think getting up at 12in the afternoon is pretty pathetic.
Anyway...
I haven't really been compelled to write about my life recently because...well...it's complicated and I'd rather not talk about it. But I've heard it's better to get it out rather than let it be bottled up, so...yeah I'll yack some to get some of that tension out.
I just can't seem to do anything right anymore.
I'm dealing with contradictory messages of my neurological system that compel me to want to date, and not to date. Theres a part of me that wants to cuddle up to someone and just feel loved for being me, and theres another part of me that wants to be left alone forever. Both are extremes (although the first isn't that much of an extreme), and it's just wearing on my already cold and tired body.
Anyway, I'm cold and miserable...i'm going to bed.
I hope I wake up tomorrow.
Anyway...
I haven't really been compelled to write about my life recently because...well...it's complicated and I'd rather not talk about it. But I've heard it's better to get it out rather than let it be bottled up, so...yeah I'll yack some to get some of that tension out.
I just can't seem to do anything right anymore.
I'm dealing with contradictory messages of my neurological system that compel me to want to date, and not to date. Theres a part of me that wants to cuddle up to someone and just feel loved for being me, and theres another part of me that wants to be left alone forever. Both are extremes (although the first isn't that much of an extreme), and it's just wearing on my already cold and tired body.
Anyway, I'm cold and miserable...i'm going to bed.
I hope I wake up tomorrow.