Really... is it?

[deliciouslydead]

Is it really worth that much for me to hurt myself over?
I don't even see you anymore...maybe for a mere fifteen minutes ...
fifteen minutes before you disappear again.
                                                             I don't know...
                                                             Maybe it's not worth the pain...
                                                             But love does have its sacrifices.
Or maybe it's the fact that you prefer to go out instead of just ...
I don't know... cuddling and actually letting me know how you feel..
Or is that too much to ask of you now?
                         I donn't know...
                         Love is worth the pain...
                         Even the sacrifice I've given...
Is it really worth everything we've worked on?
The suffering and the torment that you and I have gone through...
This may suck..as much as I say it does, but the love I have for you...
                                              It's always going to show.
                                              No matter how hard I try..
                                              It's always going to show....

I love you, Chris.... Happy four months....even though you're not here with me.